I'm not here

this shall be my new fb profile pic. 

hm. 

i took quizzes on fb today.

and apparently,

i'm relationshipphobic..

that's why i'm still single.

lolszsxzsxxzsxzs

the fact of the matter is.

if i have a boy i like.

i wont go for any other.

i just havent found that boy.. yet.

watched i am sam today.

im half way through.

min ho is freaking cute.

im so lazy.

i'll stay home more korean stuff.

sorry for ditching you miuuuuuu.

i still feel very sian.

and drained.

even though the hols just started.

grrrrrrrr.

i shall go watch taken now.

yay.

mafiasssssssssssss.

mafias are cool.

and im sleepyy.

who wants to go with me to fix my ipodddd?

I WANT NOBODY NOBODY BUT YOU

it's not like other boys don't want me.

but i want you.

bastard's waltz

if anything, 

i have to blog tonight.

about how i feel.

and the person i've become.

honestly,

i know im a stronger person than i was back then.

i am able to suck it up,

and pick myself up when someone hits me.

and i'm able to do that again and again.

people should stop hitting me already.

cos it sucks to get beaten up all the time.

but somehow, 

i like feeling like this.

but then again,

i wish things were better.

i wish i chose the right people.

but then again.

i wouldnt be where i am today.

so i wouldnt change anything.

cos the people i loved are the people i still love..

in a different way.

i like looking at the brighter side of things.

i don't think being stuck in some rut would help me.

but i'm going to pull myself,

till i find the ground. 

i need..

i don't know.

a genie what would grant my wished.

cos what i am right now.

is so stagnant.

i'm working on my emotional state so hard.

im so drained and so burnt out.

one more day.

this would be over.

i don't know what's my next move.

but please.

don't touch me anymore.

i'm annoyed and tired.

let me lay down and rest.

i don't want to be all fragile and boring.

 

i would be stronger soon.

you'll see. 

beautiful day

Have you ever woke up in the morning and thought: damn. I'm beautiful and today is a beautiful day? 

then you wash up, 

change into your best clothes,

do your make up.

and it turns out perfectly. 

you meet your friends and they're all happy to see you.

and they bring you to your favourite places and do your favourite things.

you end the day thinking about how much you're loved.

and the next day,

you do it all over again.

I think everyone is trying to reach that stage.

but sadly. this day only happens once a year..

your birthday.

or not.

cos some people have something called the IB.

lalalallaa.

did i just make you say, 'haha. my life sucks.'

yeah it does.

(:

Hello there, the angel from my nightmare.

Rachael Tay :

She's sorry about everything that happened these few days.

It's not that she doesn't like you both.

it's cos she don't want to hurt you.

so she's sorry she said no.

she's not ready.

And you've heard her story.

What i want right now is the holidays to start. Two more days of school, and I'm not done with my pracs and essays and whatnots. I think I'm going to school late again tmr. I feel like crap because my throat feels funny and I'm getting really weird bites from god knows what insects I rear in my room. Tmr, it's top girls with the girls. Thursday is skipping, with the girls. Friday is strings. I think I'm going to Taiwan next week. That's quite fast. Cos my parents just planned it today. That means shopping. (: 

I am so asian now. I realised my asian ways recently. I figured that since I'm asian, I should get be happy that I'm asian. 

1. I have started with my OMG!koreandrama!!-ness recently, as you would have noticed. 

2. I realised I'm such a rice bin. and i don't know how i'm going to survive overseas without my mom's cooking (even though she makes us eat salad for dinner every night but I simply refuse to, cos like i said. I'm a rice bin.)

 3. I only go for asian guys. yes that. Now, it's korean boys. (heeee. kim bum) I am determined to date all the chinese asian nationalities before i get married. hahahaha. maybe. University would be fun. 

4. I actually know where places are on the map. Though i'm not as good as brent, I do know where the more prominent countries are located in the map. 

5. I am good at math.. which is weird. makes me such a nerd but whatever you know. mathhhh. 

Alright i shall start a list because i am a procrastinator. 

today's list would be simple.

the 50 things i like.

1. walks in the rain

2. korean music

3. mohawk girl

4. kim bum

5. tank tops and jeans worn together

6. pills

7. chivas

8. dark colored nails

9. writing

10. checkered anything

11. surprises

12. showing up or doing something for me out of the ordinary. ( like esther. <3)

13. korean everything

14. reading whatever i have written

15. going out with my girlfs

16. going out with the boys i'm comfortable around

17. sheesha and cigarettes

18. laughing

19. chinese new year sugar candy

20. nice hip bones

21. nice eyes

22. piercings

23. the messy look i have when i just wake up

24. sleepovers

25. indian bangles

26. moschino love love

27. tommy when he plays songs according to my mood

28. crying to korean movies alone in my room

29. being alone on weekends, esp. sundays.

30. talking shit. 

31. people speaking korean in front of me ( i don't know why i get freaking excited)

32. gigs

33. good lyrics

34. EYELINER!

35. my pen tattoos.. I'M WORKING ON IT!

36. spongebob

37. cheap crap

38. super thrift shopping : this includes online shopping

39. shopping in general

40. sharon's face when i make her shoot 1,2,3,4,5

41. esther when she does something retarded and i act like i don't know her but i do.

42. nice smelling anything. it's more of an attraction. (lol)

43. the feeling of being skinny (working on it!)

44. creating random objects when i'm suppose to do homework

45. gifts

46. sitting on my ass watching movies on this comp.

47. spending the whole day reading a good mystery book

48. skull printed anything.

49. high socks; those that reaches your knee. ( but i'll never wear those)

50. squealing at gay tv shoes; mostly korean and taiwanese teenage drama crap. i know it's retarded but i like watching and squealing. 

I want to sleep.

fuck assignments. 

cos you disappeared all of a sudden

i woke up at 8.15 today.

i felt disgusting and irritated.

it's a weird feeling when your body tells you you're going to be ill.

i drowned myself in water.

i cannot take any pills.

cos there's no pills that can cure what i'm feeling now.

i don't know what i'll be sick with.

but it's just an annoying feeling for now.

i'm getting the weirdest bites.

and weird internal blood vessels bursting beneath my skin.

i can see them.

it is ugly.

my head was spliting yesterday and i took M&M pills.

maybe it's dehydration.

or the bites.

or the weather.

thunder in the middle of a hot sunny day.

well.

it never seems to get better does it?

ohh, of to school now folks.

my body says no.

but i need the revision.

ugh. my head again.

hurts when u think of it.

2 more days of school.

it'll be over temporarily. 

M&M pills

omg.

korean movies.

they make me cry like hell.

it feels so good to cry.

i think i'll cry myself to sleep tonight or something.

tmr, i'll feel better, i hope.

watched my girl and I.

another fall in love,

get leukemia 

and die.

it's about 3 teardrops worth.

my sister asked me why i was crying when she came into the room.

im like. she's dying...

wow. gees. i sound gay.

but heeee. korean movies.

had a headache today.

felt like crap.

i need to sleep.

but i have to finish my physics pracs and TOK essay.

same old as last week.

geees.

this is not good.

i should stop.

but i'll start watching I am sam or mackerel run..  

this weekend.

it'll be the start of my hols.

awesomesssssssss. 

(:

you'll never know, cos you'd never asked.

this boy's the only one for me. 

hahahaha

SHARON, EAT THAT. 

i want this one.

go get jun pyo.

KIM BUM IS MINEEEEEEEE. :D

hello there.

my faithful readers.

( i really don't know who reads my blog other than sharon and esther and steps.)

but, i'll blog again today.

cos im bored.

and i just came back from shopping.

shopping is another thing i really like, other than crying, of course.

shopping is therapeutic especially when someone else is paying.

well, this can only last about another few years,

and then i'm on my own.

i shall treasure this.

it's a good feeling.. and a bad one too.

but hey. 

this isn't forever.

so anyways.

sales are all over the place.

mid year sales people.

:D

i'm so tired.

today was a good korean movie day.

im going to watch taken soon.

apparently, it's a good show according to my dad.

one more week till the hols!!!!

whooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

hols mean..

world lit 2

revising 5 subs.

MI

taiwan???

losing weight

moviessssssss

more korean dramas and movies

evening out my tannn

drunk nights

piercing???

mid year sales shopping.

that's about it.

unspoken

alright. quick update on the past 2 days.

friday.

rushed on TOK.

went to bugis and little india with steps.

got lost in little india.

met a photographer who brought us to mustafa.

then walked to bugis street.

walking is real good exercise.

only with the right footwear.

saturday.

celefest.

was so fucking tired after friday.

my stall sucked,

cos no one came.

ok. maybe a few.

other than that,

people spent their time painting their nails..

for free.

ugh. whatever you know.

our booth sucked. 

and i finished my shift.

haunted house was stupid.

cos we waited like forever,

and the route was so odd, 

i dont get it.

the only fun part was to watch sharon's reactions when i pushed her to 'ghosts'

listened to bands play.

the screamo-ish band was good.

then went home.

on the way out,

saw 2 people making out.

hah. ew. not in public..

watched i'm a cyborg but that's ok.

it's alright.

it's like a blah show.

today is stay home and slack and recharge.

watched like 2 korean movies.

korean movies and dramas are so good.

watched my sassy girl and a millionaire's first love.

cried for both.

my sassy girl totally beats the american version.

the american version was so shit, if you compare it.

ratings for korean movies are rated with tear drops.

sassy girl gets 2 tear drops. 

a millionaire's first love gets 3 and a half tear drops.

it's like a walk to remember,

cos the girl has terminal illness.

but the guy's are different, 

BUT SO FREAKING SWEET.

crying is so therapeutic.

top 5 reasons why korean shows beats american shows any day

1. You know how in the early 2000s, there were shows like a walk to remember where everything was not about sex, koreans make shows like that, but better. i was finding shows like a walk to remember and found it.. in another country.

2. they stick, even after not watching it for 2 weeks, you still think about it, and get the goosebumps and that tingling feeling u get when you're all smitten. (maybe it's just boys before flowers)

3. it makes you cry, no matter what show it is, you'd cry your eyes out in the end. 

4. they give you the goosebumps, make you smack your head on something cos they remind you of the stupid things you go through in life. and you'd go wtf did she do that? and remember, oh man. i did that too. wtf was i thinking???

5. I'm biased.

but american crime shit rules, no matter what.

nothing's going to replace CSI, dexter, criminal minds and Law ans Order: SVU.

nothing's going to take away the top 1 show on my list though: one tree hill.

other than the fact that CHAD AND HILARIE ARE NOT GOING TO BE IN SEASON 7.

wtf righttttttt?

everyday should be like today.

i'm so addicted.

i'm going to lose myself over this soon.

the holidays would be such a useless time.

where my addictions will start to form further.

term 3.. term 3..

tsk.

how am i going to get through then?

godddddd

i am

hungry

tired

lacking sleep for the past few days

pissed off

stressed out

annoyed

waiting for my hair to dry

and i have to wake up at 8 tmr.

yesterday

one time, i asked to have u back again. 

and i never ever ask. 

but that time, i did.

god never gave u back. 

instead, he gave u to someone else.

i didn't go to church after. 

if anything, 

i remembered that yesterday would have been something.

of all days to remember right?

but, i'll get over it.

god. 

screwed over again, today.

tok this time.

this is so shit.

i'm really tired,

and there's something really wrong with my eye. 

-.-

i hope things get better already.

gees.

i cant believe im sad thinking about whatever. 

ugh. 

girl with the mohawk.

girl i want has cool hair.

but she doesnt know i exist.

i want her cos she has cool hair.

nanananananananananana.

OMG. I AM SUPPOSE TO BE DOING TOK.

700words and counting.

I'M FUCKING SLEEPY.

god help me.

grrrrrrrrr.

got screwed over by econs teacher today.

have to get my parents to actually write a letter this time.

god. who needs a doctor when there's panadol?

laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

headache today and yesterday is killing me.

just me not being able to look at the computer screen for awhile yesterday made me wonder if i have a brain tumour or something.

i scared myself to sleep yesterday thinking if i've got it.

math port could be better.

but i really need help.

grrrrrrrr.

yes. sat sat sat.

get to see muh best friend again.

3 months.

THAT IS LONG.

lalalalallalalalalala.

can't wait.

btw. 

my class is screwed for celefest.

lalalalala.

i feel like writing a song now.

but 

i need to work on the Tok essay.

this suckssssssssss.

supermassiveheadache

i skipped school again.

last time for the term. i promise.

had a supermassiveginormous headache today.

had cravings for junk food.

( which sucked)

found out i have blueberry morning tmr. :D

stressing over math portfolio.

downloading a shit load of math graphical shit,

cos you have to use technology

and some fucking program doesnt have the technology to supply u the answer.

and my headache sucks so bad.

i would smash my head against the wall soon.

panadol doesnt work.

i took 2 already.

GAHGAHGAH.

fucking hell. 

back to math.

tmr, it's more math.

then after math, it's tok essay.

and physics pracs.

SHIT. 

i have violin lesson tmr.

ugh.

what's wrong with me?

cancel or not to cancel..

hmmm. 

koreaaaaa

i shall not stop with my korean obsession for awhile.

cos koreans are cool.

i'm watching korean game shows.

it's funny.

never thought i'll turn into an addict for asian stuff.

i really really really wana go to korea.

shopping is good.

and i really like the language.

i'm going to learn to speak it soon.

ib is so restricting.

speaking of which,

GOD. MATH PORTFOLIO AND TOK ESSAY!

how difficult is it for me to finish it?

i shall stay in this i love korea state for awhile.

and brent and george, 

we need to make a pact. ;D

back when we were wild and free

well guys, 

it's almost june.

and instead, this is the toughest 1/2 year ever.

it's everything.

the course, the friendships, the people, the addictions, the huge weird-ass problems, and breakups. 

there's something every month.

january - break ups

feb - still break up. (lols)

march - weirdest problem ever, (LOLZZZZ), 

lost a friend, gained a gang. 

april - ee craze! + backstabbing shit

may - korean drama craze + online shopping craze = perfect combination for being fat and broke and still having something to do. 

adding to it, is something i found out recently that made me laugh like hell for a whole morning

and math portfolio and TOK essay.

omg. :D i'm almost done!

anyways, i like the end results of a hard time.

makes you a stronger and better person, 

unless, you don't solve anything and keep holding on to the problems.

looking back at things now,

i think everything from march onwards was really stupid.

can't believe i was so pissed about it at one point.

hah.

so i guess its safe to say that the only things that were tough was breaking up and IB.

i'm glad i made a whole load more new friends this year.

they're good people.

and they're fun.

I LOVE YOU GUYS!

and also, reconnected with my secondary school friends.

that's one of the best parts.

right, another 2 weeks of this IB shit and it's the holidays.

finally.

seemed like forever, didn't it?

it  was a long long long longggggg 2nd term.  

back to work guys. 

2 more weeks!!

:D

HAHAHAHA.

you amuse me. 

not everything is about you.

HAHAHHA. 

GET OVER YOURSELF!

this is what u and everything that happened means to me now.

hah. you loser. (:

burn out

i'm bored of everything & i'm broke, once again.

I dreamt of you again last night. i hugged you. and you lost your memory. 

but i got to hug you again. 

i shall find my motivation again.

this term feels like 20 years. 

IB ages you so much in 3 months.

ugh. 

Self-destruct

For now I have climbed to the peaks, and the mountains disappear to small ant hills. I feel nothing but the wind and disappointment. The world seems so small and it gets to me. I’m alive, on the top of the world. For now, nothing is going to get me. For now, I am cold and weary. This, a sense of achievement? I don’t think so. Failure is what I am. For what I have become, and myself, I couldn’t have become any worst. My life, in pieces and my motivation to get up in the mornings, non-existent but yet I’m on top of the world. What am I suppose to feel? What am I suppose to be? The tallest mountain on earth could not bring me the sense of freedom and peace I long for. I am spinning round and round. No one’s going to catch me. I’m falling. Down, down, down. Don’t save me. Please. This is the best feeling I’ve had in ages. 

ugh.

my mind is like a tornado,

spinning outta control.

it remembers every part of the show i watched in the last 3 days.

it cannot focus on anything.

god,

i need to focus on work.

or it'll keep piling up.

it keeps remembering.

it's annoying cos suddenly,

a gajillion emotions starts running around like little children around toys. 

you're sad and happy.

you're with company and lonely.

that's just messed up. 

grrr...

addictions.

heeeeee. you can stare at him forever. 

right, 

im done with boys over flowers in 3 days.

skipping school to do math today.

and TOK essay.

god. everything is so hectic.

watching boys over flowers just makes me do work.

cos im like shit. i wasted time!

so i'm spending a whole load of time working now.

which is a good thing.

no logic there,

but i just woke up so. 

ugh. whatever.

boys over flowers is alright.

not a really good show,

cos the sad parts didnt make me cry that bad.

i think i just like crying.

so i'm watching it.

its so addictive too.

i swear, if im addicted to something,

i'll go all out to do it.

like this.

watching stuff.

i've been like that since i was a kid.

watching stuff the whole day.

i could sit infront of the tv for 10 hours non-stop.

that's only when i had nickelodeon, cartoon network and disney channel.

lol.

right,

getting back to work now.

math portfolio...

ugh.

:(

i found my escape. what's yours?

i found my escape in the seclusion of my room. 

i havent been out in 2 days.

and i don't want to be. 

because i want to be stuck here watching cliche romance crap than out facing reality.

i think i know the reason why i watch so much shit.

it's because for that 1 hour you're watching something,

you feel like you're in the show.

and you are brought to places where you'd never be in real life.

for that one hour, there's hope in your life and there's a dream.

then after it's over,

you snap back to see how empty and fat and ugly and unlucky you are.

then you watch the next episode. 

that's how you watch tv non-stop.

 whatever we see in reality now, 

is a build up of what we learn from when we were kids.

we were all brought up reading fairytales.

that's a lie we learn right from the start.. happy endings.

one day, we'll find prince charming and ride off into the sunset?

never gonna happen.

what i guess what's pushing us to survive - hope.

maybe i'm the only person who survives on hope and dreams and all that crap.

but well, it's worth waiting and dreaming.

i think this is also because of my horoscope that i'm all romantic and gay and everything.

but ah. we all have to escape sometimes right? 

must finish work before continuing to watch boys before flowers.

damn. this sucks.

must not start until late afternoon.

ugh. 

!!!

i want a korean guy now

i'm back to my normal single life habits.

being a cow and sitting in front of this machine watching cliche romance shows.

this time, it's korean dramas.

today.. and for the rest of the week,

BOYS BEFORE FLOWERS.

shut up. i know you guys watched it already.

i mean only tessa and steph. 

lol.

but argh. it's so awesome.

pot making rich boy is damn cute.

and im sorry. i cant be bothered to remember all their names.

it all sounds the same.

but i learnt some korean today.

yes. 12 hours of non-stop korean drama teaches you something.

i want to watch more korean dramas.

and taiwanese ones,

and cantonese ones.

i swear, i'm turning back to the roots. 

hah.

nawh. i think asians are cool.

i wish i learnt that sooner.

i think asian culture is so rigidly secretive.

and very close.

but what i like it is that its very simple and innocent.

and not everything is about sex.

hmmm.

omg. the korean family in boys before flowers is so cute.

they're like little hamsters and bunnies prancing and bouncing around the place.

so cute.

i want a family like that.

mom is really cute, and she's cool with her daughter having boyfs.

dad is really nice and sweet and not to mention, cuddly and understanding.

and a daughter who knows how to stand up for herself, and she carries herself well.

and a son whose cute and smart and sticks his eyeballs on the computer.

the cutest part is that they sleep together, one small happy family.

not very rich, but happy.

that's the best kinda.

or, a huge family but everyone is really close. 

anyways, i'll continue about why asians are cool..

cos we get cool festivals like setting things on fire and getting money

now how awesome is that? 

what's better than getting money and setting the weirdest things on fire?

i'm happy being asian. 

i shall never complain again. 

promise.

sometimes, you have to meet douchebags to know who's the right one

omg, i just watched two hundred pound beauty.

slow, i know.

but i love it, and it made me cry like fuck. 

lol. i need more korean shows!

now i know why tessa & steph all watch so much korean stuff.

freaking awesome.

you have to watch to know.

watched 17 again yesterday.

it's quite good.

not the best, but good.

they give really good advice like how you need to meet douchebags along the way and in the end, you'd meet the right one.

but there are funny bits too, like " you can come into my dungeon anytime"... "i'll bring my long sword" or something along that lines. 

you get what i mean.

yes, 

back to no work and more movies.

must start work tmr.

god. korean showws!! 

:):):):):):):)

can you keep a secret?

i cannot tell you how oddly frustrated i am because of a few things.

1. econs commentary. i didn't check the article's date. fuck. i have to redo that shit.

2. ?!?!?!?!!!!?????!!!

3. more ??!??!??!?!?!!??!?!?!?!?!?!?!?

4. today is so unproductive.

5. rachael feels like stagnant water. where annoying fucking insects like mosquitoes breed. to make it easier to understand. my life is so stagnant now, it sucks and i need to keep on moving. god. i had better days. 

6. i need a party/shopping trip/a drinking session to relax. work load is killing me. god.

7. i need to pokey now. or the stuff would rot in the box. 

8. stephhhhhhhh. we need productive work sessions. argh.

9. i need something that would help me relax.

10. im fat. 

:(

i losing weight. 

the whole problem about it is that,

you don't see the results immediately.

and then you eat again and go darn it.

so you give up somehow.

i need new perfume.

who wants to get me moschino? 

the one that smells like oranges.

mmmm. 

5.

5. The Nonconformist
5's are the explorers. Their natural curiosity, risk taking, and enthusiasm often lands them in hot water. They need diversity, and don't like to be stuck in a rut. The whole world is their school and they see a learning possibility in every situation. The questions never stop. They are well advised to look before they take action and make sure they have all the facts before jumping to conclusions. 

now how true is that? 

over that last few months, my natural curiousity risk taking caused me to loose almost everything. and enthusiasm? i guess. only for random exciting things though. 

and jumping into conclusions?

i'm too lazy to wait to pass judgement. 

 I'm skipping school today,

to finish up my econs,

and tok

and start on math portfolio

and the analysis of dido and aeneus.

ugh.

online shopping is still so tempting.

Go on, Try to Forget me.

Go ahead, Try n Erase me.

You know the only reason why you'd do that is because you still think about me.

 A Lot.

Ohmygawd,

economics commentary

is due..

tmr.

and i hardly started.

it's either i sleep early and skip school tmr to finish my work,

or stay up late and sleep in school.

either way, it sucks.

School's been crazy so far.

portfolios given out today.

hm.

vesak day is going to suck.

because you add this to TOK essay, 

and econs test

and physics IAs,

and music investigation.

not cool/fun/exciting at all.

skip or not to skip tmr.

hm.

i am frustrated over something i'm not suppose to be frustrated about because that only shows that i care, which i do but i dont want to. this sounds really gay and stupid but i have to let this all out before i can do anymore work. This sucks more cos this means i cant concentrate properly and i'm going to stay up all night. honestly, my life at this point. hm. i'm happy with the way it is but it could really be a whole damn lot better if people would just be nicer and less self centered and less back-stabber-ish and less childish. gees. boys would always be boys, and girls would always be backstabbing bitches, well some of them. 

grrrrr.

online shopping cures everything.

i just received another package today. :D

MUST resist temptation. 

I cute my hair.

i want to go to the happy place

to have a happy meal

with my happy friends.

I cute my hair today.

now i have fucking bangs.

I was all like i want to cut my fringe a lil shorter,

and my hair thinner.

and she's like cutting my hair.

and she's like oh. i'm going to make your hair like the latest jap trend.

lalala.

fucking bangs.

i cant wait for them to grow.

i want my hair covering my face again.

cos im cooler that way. 

and not erm. cute.

HAHA. HAHA.HAHA.HAHA.HAHA. 

YOU MADE MY DAY.

thankxzxzxzxz.

DO PHYSICS PRACS NOW!

looks like im going to stay up late now.

it's 9.30

that's like.

omg. i have 3 pracs to do and i have an hour. 

cos i have 2 tests tmr.

cbcbcbccbcbcbcbcb.

im paying extra for a dress.

cbcbcbccbcbcbcbccb.

I MISS YOU!

new tattoos

you know how i said i was over it?

i'm sorry. 

it was just an eclipse that blocked you away.

you, my sun.

for the longest time.

right up there so high.

pretty bird, my distraction.

but she won't be there for long.

somewhere in there,

you'd stay.

no winds or earthquakes would destroy you.

but one day, the sea waves would crash into you.

but until then,

it's not going to change.

i'd never go back to stay.

but hey there.

don't throw me away.

yellow sunshine.

your rays are dripping down your body.

never ending rain drops from my face.

you're here to stay.

last night, i cried myself to sleep.

Last night, I cried myself to sleep.

That's because I was thinking about you.

I'll never watch romance flicks again.

i did nothing again today.

i lost my physics practical paper.

that's what u get when u live with me.

i loose everything.

i'm making my sister help me find it.

god. it's so easy to bribe her.

lol. one word: food.

when my mom is at home,

she stuffs me like a cow.

im so bloated now.

this is why i'm fat.

I need to repaint my nails and get off facebook.

Start on physics pracs and find an econs article.

we'll run away. where are we running from?

really really really should stop online shopping.

omg.

lakehouse is on now.

watched da vinci code today.

i didnt do anything.

cos i dont feel like it.

gah.

shopping online is so addictive.

im going to be broke broke broke soon.

if i continue shopping like this.

:(

who wants to donate to the let's-help-rachael-stop-online-shopping-fund.

or 

help-rachael-not-get-broke-fund.

thanks guys.

she's such an awesome person. your loss.

tessa.

Happy belated birthday!

I LOVE YOU!

You're an awesome friend.

and i thank you for being there for me. :D

hope you had an awesome birthday.

i just want you to know i'd be here for you no matter what. 

cos you're pretty and you like hello kitty and pink.

i hope you wont spoil your pretty pink balloons.

cos you might forget and switch on your fan or something.

LOL.

have fun with your first bottle! 

LOVE, R.T