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hello there pretty lady,

you're not alone anymore.

today, i woke up really sad.

i miss home so bad.

i miss everyone.

so fucking bad.

like, it just makes me want to cry thinking about it.

which im not going to do.

im going to try to be happy today.

there's so much things i have to learn to deal with.

and it's so fucking difficult.

now that im not that alone anymore.

but still.

its tiring trying to please everyone and stuff like that.

god.

i hate this sometimes.

but i really love this place so much.

alright, anyways. i was reading my tumblr.

and i realised how depressed and shit i really was and like i dont know.

i dont want to feel that ever again.

and im in this new thing,

with someone who's awesome.

but i dont know. it's just weird.

like

too good to be true,

so maybe im trying to keep a distance for now.

i know, so retarded right.

but i dont know what to do.

i guess im just scared that i'll end up like my first few posts of tumblr again.

which is really,

the worst i've ever felt.

and this whole thing.

just makes me think about that.

and its not cool.

at all.

just feel so.

scared.

i dont want to be alone.

but i dont want to get hurt either.

god.

im so weirdddddddd.

i should stop feeling this way.

anyways. its sunny outside.

doesnt match how im feeling today.

gotta go downtown soon.

it feels weird when whatever you wants come true.

and in a foreign land.

when you're all alone.

just, too good to be true.

odd.

what the fuck is this?