what the fuck?

but you're the idiot.

i want last october back

i wana know what you're thinking,

what you're doing,

what you're gonna do,

what you wana do,

what you're thinking about,

if it's me,

and if you still love me still,

if you loved me,

if you're gonna love me tmr.

where i used to sit and talk to you

there's a piece of you that's here with me,

it's everywhere i go,

it's everything i see.

when i sleep and it gets me by,

i can make believe that you're here tonight.

if i could fight you know,

things would get better.

you know what, maybe i would just do that.

i hate the pain.

i miss you.
:(

goodbye dear friend

but if it were only that easy..

do you know me? i don't think so.

i'm gonna give you a rose,

but pls, can i have a 2008 extention??

how bad is physics?

seriously,

i hate science.

fine,

not really hate.

i'm just really really really really really bad at it.

it's not the inventor of physic's fault.

it's the genes, really.

haha.

so now,

the year's going quicker than i though.

it's almost chinese new year.

this equalsss...

fat season!

pineapple tarts from distant grandmother's friends are so goood.

or is she a relative?

i really dont know.

lol.

what?

i don't understand the whole malaysian family structure thing that well.

it's too huge.

i mean come on,

your great grand father has like 4583475983210293 kids.

it's hard to keep track of all.

hahaha.

they're all over the world for god's sakes.

but that's how it is, isn't it?

makes my life better than the way it is.

school's going to start soon.

that's worst than anything.

like the worst news everr.

people are going to chase me for tons of stuff,

that's what's in for me this school season!

stay tune..

im a you have to beg me to do your work kinda person,

so therefore,

i have to be some kinda top person,

doing what im damn good at,

like a song writer,

a really good one.

and my boss begging his ass off to make e write another hit song.

yeah.

i think i have decided.

i'm going to be an awesome song writer.

hahahha.

yeah right.

my ass.

or

prolly some business person.

in an awesome suit.

an awesomly sexy suit..

alright.

piano playing and world lit paper time!

i just wana finish reading the whole twilight series...

god, why SCHOOL??

2009.

the BRIGHT side;

1. closer to being legal.

2. closer to freedom.

3. closer to university!

4. still the fun and parties and friends.

5. i dont have to be scared about making new friends and all that like last year.

6. a step closer to independence (which is quite a scary thing actually)

the DARK side;

1. closer to ib.

2. closer to losing friends i feel like i just made.

3. closer to the future, where i have to decide what i wanna be and all that.

4. the whole studying like crazy cycle again.

5. running outta time to being young.

6. i am freaking ass old. it's times like this you wish you were 12.

7. leaving school, again. it's too fast.

8. time passing to fast to do and wish i would have more time to do what i want to do, like learning more instruments when i was younger (i feel like im 40, saying this)

9. im not prepared for this year. i have 19 days to get back on my feet.

10. actually working hard again, cos my life depends on this.
11. losing. that's what i'm most afraid of.