i found my escape. what's yours?

i found my escape in the seclusion of my room. 

i havent been out in 2 days.

and i don't want to be. 

because i want to be stuck here watching cliche romance crap than out facing reality.

i think i know the reason why i watch so much shit.

it's because for that 1 hour you're watching something,

you feel like you're in the show.

and you are brought to places where you'd never be in real life.

for that one hour, there's hope in your life and there's a dream.

then after it's over,

you snap back to see how empty and fat and ugly and unlucky you are.

then you watch the next episode. 

that's how you watch tv non-stop.

 whatever we see in reality now, 

is a build up of what we learn from when we were kids.

we were all brought up reading fairytales.

that's a lie we learn right from the start.. happy endings.

one day, we'll find prince charming and ride off into the sunset?

never gonna happen.

what i guess what's pushing us to survive - hope.

maybe i'm the only person who survives on hope and dreams and all that crap.

but well, it's worth waiting and dreaming.

i think this is also because of my horoscope that i'm all romantic and gay and everything.

but ah. we all have to escape sometimes right? 

must finish work before continuing to watch boys before flowers.

damn. this sucks.

must not start until late afternoon.

ugh. 

!!!