hey! look guys! it's tina!

kinda happens when the hols are here.
it's food and sleep and movies and food and sleep.
damn. im piggin' out.
i need to find something to do.

oh. oh. i have this new thing i really like.
and thatttt'ssssss muffins. :)
my mom bought muffins.
> = better than.
therefore,
banana muffins>strawberry muffins>chocolate chip muffins.
but chocolate muffins rules them all.
HAHAHA.
shit.
im beginning to sound like a cow. =X
(sorry jenni)

oh one thing you can learn about fighting movies is...
never have an army.
never ever have one.
ok, fine, if you want an army,
make sure it's smaller in number than the opponents.
you see, in every show, people usually fight like 3 vs the whole kingdom or something.
so the 3 people would always win,
anyhow,they will win.
it's kinda stupid cos every show is most probably like that.
unless it's armies against armies where i think the hotter guy's army always loses.
whatever you know,
i dont like war movies,
they're pretty boringggggg.

japan tmr.
oh, i havent mentioned that?
hahha. im looking forward to the last day.
i want a rollercoaster so i can scream my lungs out.
i kinda need it.
i feel trapped in a way,
kinda sucks.

my parents are going to thailand while im in japan.
pretty much explains why im going to japan huh?
it's either church camp or japan.
you know why now.
rightttttt. im really tired.
it's the headache i think.
damnnnnnn.
and i need to drink more water.
and there's a hugeeeee pinple on my face.
like hugeeeeee.
damnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.
this sucks.

im so tired now,
and i need to practise the piano.
and it's 11 in the morning.
and there's thunder.
and there's lightning.
how am i going to go out???
sara isnt calling yet.
so i guess it's me and polly and the piano.
the piano needs a name.
hmmmmmmmmm.
i realise i name everything.
all sara's fault.
first it was tommy the ipod,
then it's maggie the stone table.
then it's polly the laptop,
then it's tina the thing that always pops out in the hols,
then there is a lot more stuff yet to name.
and it's fun.
trust me.
try it.

fineeeee.
im so retarded,
you guys could die.
have fun (dying) while you are at it.

art in all it's forms

my mom is awesomeeee.
she bought me stuff for japan.
i love her for that.
i love her more when we shop.

no way.... no way.... no fucking way....

Screw the basics
Spell your middle name backwards: i dont have a middle name.
Whats the third letter of your first name?: c
Are you named after anyone?: nope.
Whats your zodiac sign?: libra.
Do you think that you fit the description of that sign?: yeah.
What month is your birthday in?: september
Birthstone?: Sapphire

School
Do you own a class ring?: what the hell is that?
Do you plan on going to your prom?: Yep.
Where do you wanna go to college?: some college in manhattan. i forgot the name.
What is your 4th hour class?: if i'm in school now, it would be economics.
Do you like it?: kinda.
Least favorite teacher?: i dont think i have one in this school.
Do you go to public or private school?: private.

Lifestyle / Random Questions
Name all these drugs you've tried: Orphenadrine Citrate Paracetamol.
Do you drink?: yeah.
Party alot?: not so much anymore.
How many hours of tv do you watch a day: really depends what day it is.
Whose gonna win American Idol?: your mom.
Do you know who your governor is?: some old guy.
How late to do you go to sleep?: late.
How early do you wake up in the morning?: School? around 7.

Do you...
have tivo?: no.
brush your teeth with an electric toothbrush?: no.
drink a lot of water: nope.
watch cartoons?: sometimes.
live with both parents?: yepp.
have an exotic pet?: no.
travel alot?: kinda.
have your license?: nope.
own a laptop?: mmhm.
have a myspace?: yeah.

Travel
Name all the states you've been to: hm, washington state, san fransisco, LA, cant remember. i was 4.
Name all the countries you've been to: malaysia, singapore, thailand, korea, japan, USA, canada, china, australia, and i forgot the rest.
Name 3 places you really wanna go: france, africa, colorado.
Ever taken a road trip?: nope.
Do you have a house in another state?: yeah, or country you may call.
Name one state that you would really want to live in: vancouver.
Ever been on vacation with a friend?: if you count school people.
School trips: like, or dislike?: like, if people i like are going.

Fashion
do you have a certain syle?: not really..
how many pairs of shoes do you think you own: like around 5?
where do you buy most of your clothes?: whereever.
Ever made your own clothes?: tried and failed miserably.
What color do you wear most?: black.
favorite brand?: zara.
do you hate shopping?: really depends on my mood.
whats your most expensive item of clothing?: my prom dress?
Do you have any clothing from another state/country?: yeah.
Do you buy clothes often?: not really.
What of your friends has the worst fashion?: i don't know?
Which of your friends has the best fashion?: points above.

THE END
What did you think of this survey?: pfffft.

thanks, but im not emo.

i'm happy that some idiot would be home today.

/big gay smiley face.

im going to meet sara in 2 and a half hours.

cant wait cant wait cant wait.

i miss her so so so so muchhh.

i dont think im going to visit maggie today.

she wants maggie to meet tina.

NOT GOING TO HAPPEN.

hahha. i dont think you guys know what we're talking about.

HAHAHA. :)

actually, im really happy,

and i can't wait for the day to be almost over.

shiiiiiiiit.

i need to pack.

shiiiiiiiit.

i think i lost my ic.

shiiiiiiiit.

oh man,

im going to look for my ic again.

i always always loose it.

shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit.

The secrets in telling

Keep your songs on shuffle. (Just the ones you like a lot)

Where will you go:
How Long - Red Hot Chilli Peppers

You die saying:
Sympathy - Billy Talent

How about the world:
Hold On- Blink 182

Why do you care:
Because I Want You - Placebo

You tell your mom:
Stay away - Rooney

Where you will die:
East Bay - NOFX

How is your life:
Walking 1isaster - Sum 41

Are you a drugged:
Guilty - Flyleaf

What will you say on your first date with someone new:
Three Cheers For Five Years - Mayday Parade

When you cry, you listen to:
Untenable - Weezer

When you're angry, you listen to:
I Consume You - Rediscover

When you're happy, you listen to:
Last Flight Home - All Time Low

When you feel like dying, you listen to:
Everchanging - Rise Against

When you are being choked you will say:
You Were So Last Summer - Taking Back Sunday

You find the love of your life when this song comes on:
Everything We Had - The Academy Is

When you get drunk, you will say:
Polly - Nirvana

How will you die:
Ocean And Atlantic -Mayday Parade

Is life short:
It's Not Your Fault - New Found Glory

Do you have strength:
Me Vs The World -Madina Lake

This is why you are hot:
Someday - Nickelback

When you kiss you listen to:
Top Of the World - Kate Voegele

When you hug, you hear this:
Hero/Heroine - Boys Like Girls

If you get shot, you think of this song:
Cut up Angels - The Used

Begging someone you hear this song:
The Art Of Sharing Lovers - A Static Lullaby

When someone scares you, you will say:
I'll Never Let You Go - Third Eye Blind

Thinking about your past:
Pretty Girl - Sugarcult

Where will you die at:
Fallen Leaves - Billy Talent

Deep in thought:
Ghost Of A Good Thing - Dashboard Confessionals

it's the simplest things

rachael is a loser,

and so while she waits for some person to come back,

she'll spend her days watching grey's anatomy,

and writing down what i learn from it.

she's going to practise the damn piano so she wouldn't embarress herself in front of japanese people.

and she's going to actually pick up a book when she tears herself off the computer screen.

she's going to meet sara soon,

if not,

she'll be stuck on this thing being actually really emotional,

and starts thinking of stuff,

and i dont want her to do that.

it's bad for her.

alright, so for today.

what we can learn from grey's anatomy;

1. don't walk down the stairs when you have a headache and while you hold a nail gun, you'll most probably fall and shoot yourself in the head with the nail gun; 7 times.

2. you can actually throw a party and not be there.

3. long distance relationship never works out, ever.

4. cows are more superior than pigs.

of all the lonely hearts, you're the one i'm thinking of

something i want you to give me right now.

why'd you have to go?
why'd you have to leave.
i wished you wouldn't,
but you did.

holidays are here for you to get fat.
that's what im going to be.
i ate so much today,
and im starting on grey's anatomy.
it's good.
now i know why you wana be a doctor, rara.

can't wait till tmr.
i can see sara. :)

what i learnt from grey's anatomy today;
1. if a guy tries to rape you, bite off his dick.
2. don't sleep around, the guy you slept with maybe your boss.
3. everyone sleeps with everyone.

i'm a mess

LEON.

i slept 11 hours yesterday.

that was awesome.

i havent slept so long and so well in weeks.

went to esplanade with tessa today.

we ended up facebook surfing.

and then we went to find a bus after that.

and we were two idiots not going around suntec trying to find that bus stop that we ended up not finding after 1 hour plus.

so we took a cab and we headed down to holland,

but we realised we didnt have enough cash with us,

so we were discussing what to do and then we cabbed to orchard.

when we were discussing,

the taxi driver was speaking chinese to us and telling us that his sorry we find him scary and stuff like that.

and we were like what the hell right?

so we said we were sorry we stopped here cos we didnt have enuf money and stuff like that.

and he was all im sorry people look at me and think im really scary and we didnt need to pay him, we dont bring money into the world and we dont take it when we die so its fine.

and we were like huh? what the hell is wrong with him. we didnt even see how he looked like.

and we didnt at all, not because we were scared or stuff, but he was real freaky saying that.

hm. wierd taxi experience.he was speaking chinese all the way and i think that was what he said.

we paid him anyway because i would feel bad if i didnt.

im going to spend tmr practising the piano.

japan is on sunday.

and i cant be bothered to pack.

im a mess as i said.

im obsessed and i miss you so bad.

i'll find me a way to get outta it.

im so tired,

i could die.

but i just cant sleep.

3 freaking hours of damn sleep.

and another 2 in the afternoon.

being idiots and with you guys are fun.

and i miss you :)

stupid camwhores.

but it was fun.

tell me what's my problem

rachael is so gross and gay now.

i hate it when rachael is gay.

she gets emotional.

like really emotional over the smallest things.

ew. rachael is gay.

rachael misses sara now.

and rachael has a lot to tell sara.

and also, she is sorry.

rachael is very sorry sara.

i promise an awesome june hol.

loads of ben's and jerry's for you now,

while rachael gets emotional.

fine. i miss you sara.

i miss you so so much.

see you on monday and stuff. :)

i wished time would have stayed still.

i'm going to tell you this only once.

if i'm going to put myself out there for you,
i'll put my whole heart in.
and i don't, i won't expect anything back.
i wish this wouldn't end.
i wish days like this would go on for a long time.
i wish i didnt care how people think.
and i'm going to miss you when you're gone.

but i know i'm going to survive it anyhow.

you know you want me to want you,
and i want you too.

sometimes people write the things they can't say

maybe i do, but maybe i dont dare to.

you know how it is when you became so hardened up emotionally,

you dont wana be soft again.

i dont want to be soft again.

i dont want to give in to everything around me.

and it's only the pressure i feel.

people talk to me.

they tell me how it is like,

but i dont know what i want.

i dont know what i want right now.

i just need time to think.

time to reflect.

sometimes,

i think im just afraid.

im afraid of people.

of what they say,

of what they think.

but i know its stupid because what matters is me.

it's what i think,

not what they think.

maybe you dont understand this.

so give it time.

but you know i'd go with the flow.

i know it's not perfect.

nothing is,

when all i wish for is for this to be perfect.

but i know its not.

it's not you.

i really dont want anything bad to come out of this.

this is my one chance,

after a year of suffocation of my mistake.

i dont know if i had let it go.

i dont know if i bought that emotions here

maybe im just not ready.

maybe im just too afraid to tell you.

maybe.. just maybe.

it's just me.

tell me im not wrong.

rachael is gay gay gay gay gay.

god, you talk like a wuss.

damn.

man up a bit.

geesssss.

you're going to give all of it up for this?

rachael, you control your emotions,

its mind over matter.

your brain controls you even though it says follow your heart.

fucking hell.

i hate this kinda decisions.

all it does is it screws you up.

do i want this?

i can't sleep without you. haha.

my life now is dazed, snap me out.

arghhhhhh. i feel so gay.

what the fuck is wrong with you rachael?
what the fuck man.
you are so gay,
gayness is non existant.
fuck you, you stupid bitch.
god, you are gay as hell.
rachael you are gay.
omg omg omg omg.

it doesnt have to mean goodbye, does it?

keep telling this to yourself, love.

it'll keep you alive for now.

but you can't help thinking,

is this going to end?

is it even going to start?

then tell me what all these means,

so i can stop it before it gets stronger.

tell me before its too late.

cos i feel like crap in this suspense.

tell me i'm wrong.

even though i want the opposite.

i expect something so make up your mind.

what are you thinking?

i'm not going to be fine until i know,

tell me before it's too late.

it happend slowly.

then you're too afraid to ____.

we came down to watch the world walk by

1. lauren

2. bao

3. belinda

4. tara

5. brent

6. roshan

7. tessa

8. louis

9. esther

10. denise

11. sarah

12. stephanie

13. nathara

THE QUESTIONS:

1. How did you meet 13?

in school this year. i forgot exactly how.

2. What would you do if you NEVER met 6?

i wouldnt know some stuff i know now and english and physics wont be as fun.

3. What would you do if 2 and 9 dated

HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA. i would laugh my asssssss off.

4. Did you ever like 5?

c'mon. i love brent.

5. Would 1 and 8 be a good couple?

they make an extremely cuteeeeeee couple.

6. Is number 11 gay/lesbian?

yes. im dating her.

8. What is your first memory of 3?

bitch. haha. thats what i thought of her when i was 9. and then she turned out to be my best friend. :)

9. Do you know any of 1's family members?

nope.

10. What's 10's favorite color?

hahaha. i dont know.

11. What would you do if 9 just confessed he/she liked you?

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH. i'll shoot her.

12. what language does number 3 speak?

english.

13. Who is 9 going out with?

stop asking me about number 9!!

14. What grade is 12 in?

year 5.

15. When did you last see 7?

yesterday night.

16. What is 7's favorite band?

i dont know.

17. Would you ever date 2?

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA.

18. Is 3 hot?

my best friend's hot, my best friend's hot.

19. Is 12 single?

yes.

21. Would you ever want to be in a serious relationship w/ 1?

nawh. her boyf would die.

22. Where does 10 go to school?

my school.

23. whats 5's best physical feature?

his mole and his 6 cm vertically wide mouth.

24. Are number 7 & 8 Best friends?

shit noo.

25. Is 8 a girl or boy?

boyyyyy.

26. Who is number 5 in love with?

your mom.

27. What is your favorite memory of 7?

english and music classes.

29. What is the funniest memory of 11?

omg. everything from maggie the stone table to nicknaming people with food names.

30. What is your bond between number 2?

we annoy each other.

31. How old is 13?

18.

32. How close are you with number 12?

mmm we're close.

34. What's your favorite memory with 1?

locker time!

36. What's your favorite thing about number 4?

i love having conversations with her.

37. Is 6 a virgin?

ask tara.

38. What would you do if 4 asked you out?

i'll go out with her man.

it's going on and on and it never stops

i just wanted to do that.
guess what?
my parents realised that all 3 of us were noisy and annoying,
so being the oldest,
i have to babysit the kids until they come back from malaysia,
...tmr evening.
so my plan for a movie marathon with the girl who makes me happy,
is cancelled.
i swear to god that sleeping is of such non existence in this house,
especially when you are annoyed by the noises,
especially when they sound like stampades,
especailly when these stampades are caused my only 2 people, my sister and my brother.
which is an awesome thing cos im usually a heavy sleeper or something,
i swear to god, when i woke up,
i was so bitchy,
thank god for sara.
i think i'd probably die at the end of tonight without her.
she was like 'haha. give them wine and put them to sleep.'
or something like that.
i could die here.
i really could.
i wanted so bad to kill someone just now.
i swored so loudly just now,
i'd die if she'd tell on me.

food's coming in like 45 mins.
and its macs.
how fat is that?
my eyes are failing on me now.
they hurt.
i hate them for leaving me with the kids,
im about to die so bad.

i shouldn't feel this way.

& im not suppose to.

it's over.
it's over.
it's over.
finally.

im so freaking exhausted,
i could die.
i've been all stoned since i woke.
went to town at 10.30.
god, i wanted so bad to sleep,
so i didnt bother to dress up to go to town.

im not going to act next term,
im too lazy too.
i think i should concentrate more on music and writing.
and really, start reading.
my english sucks so bad.
im going to actually start revising next term so promotion exams wouldnt suck.

my obssesion is a phrase of thinking of you ever other minute.
and when it gets stronger,
it's every other second.
im not going to go on with this any longer.
its screwing my mind.
but then again, it's you.

there lies a story.

i am beyond tired.

i screwed up my last line.

but it was good.

the performance i mean,

set up in 2 weeks.

im so tired i would die.

i havent slept well since tuesday.

how awful is it to wash your hair after having hairspray on your hair?

god. it is so gross.

i hate bathing.

cos its damn annoying yo wait for ur hair to dry.

and another gross thing.

whatever i wear today, tmr.

and it's not that stinky, thank god.

i know im so gross but i have my rules.

my rule is to only wash clothes that stink. hahahah

sometimes, i feel like a boy for random reasons such as this.

performance tmr, again.

im so tired.

shopping in the morning.

damn. my hair wont dry.

im not going to act next term.

im taking a break.

i've had 2 plays back to back this term.

im so tired.

thank god the term is almost over.

im about to drop and die.

night.

sweet dreams people of the planet earth.

i'm tired of sunrise.

rehearsals on tuesday.
god. that was tiring.
boring cos i only had 4 lines.
but i love the bus rides where we have kash-tray time.
asking the ipod for directions.
useless but fun game.

i have to look 41 while everyone else gets to look hawt.
dang.
but i look like a secratary.
lol. 'yes mr president?.... coffee....i'm be there asap.'
HAHA.
i was damn retarded tonight.
i went like 'ting dong mai!' at sara and started speaking like a filipino.
god. i am so wierd sometimes.
i just burst out in random accents and dont know how i got them in the first place.
now that's cool y'll!

english was the stupidest class today.
people got to sing on the wii.
brent sang.
HAHAHAHAHA,
and then roro started being an ass.
and then there was ben who was damn retarded.
sluttymcslutty. haha.

i dont know why i really went to school today.
well, music was just research time,
math was just going to thru the portfolio.
econs was games and stuff,
and then english was wii time.
i think i wasted another day of sleeping.

oh oh. i didnt go for the sports heats yesterday.
i came home like real early like 2.30 early yesterday.
and watched tila tequila, OTH and gg.
then i went to slp at like 6.30 and woke up at 7 this morning,
of course, i had messages and shit and i called sara.
and she accidentily video called me and then i saw her i-just-woke-up-so-im-sorry-i-look-like-i-havent-opened-my-eyes-cos-i-just-woke-up.
i wonder if she accidentily purposely accidentily does that to __ ____ too.
HAHAHAHA.

rehearsal ended 2 hours ago and i kinda just got home.
this sucks.
bus rides with tommy.
listening to him while he plays songs that im not in the mood for.
sucks lah tommy.
although you're not going to read this cos u wont understand it anyways cos you're a freaking piece of technology.
you suck tonight.
but i love you still.
(oh. i need to charge you.)

if really, you are that dumb not to understand what tommy is,
tommy is my ipod.
my ipod's name is tommy.

alright, tmr's the performance.
i need to get all the rest i need.
mayb, just mayb i'll skip school or just chapel.

all i want to say is i miss you
but i dont know if you feel the same way too.
bedroom shadows and window cracks.
i hope i'll see you soon.

dont leave me alone in this darkness

my mom's so nice.

she gave me wine to get me to sleep.

cos i havent been sleeping well since last week.

and i am exhausted.

i have to start on english.

haveta haveta haveta.

but im getting drowsy......

i think this only means i'll go to school real sleepy tmr.

i think im going to write about rape for english.

it's interesting.

school was long today.

and it'll be longer tmr.

because of rehearsals and stuff.

god im tired.

night world.

i'll be away for once.

i wrote this for sara today;
find out about the chemistry about animals like why i = you, you = me. like monkeys = gorillas and gorillas=chimpanzees.

a good scientific equation poetry.

i'd go down in history, you'll see

Ten Lasts

1. Person you called/who called you: my brother.

2. Person you texted/who texted you: justin.

3. Restaurant you ate at: pepper lunch? is that considered a restaurant?

4. Movie you saw in theaters: i forgot.

5. Relationship: that was like 48762482years ago.

6. Song you listened to: hooray for the 21st century by babyshambles

7. Thing that made you smile: talking to sara online.

8. Book you finished: the bluest eye, finally.

9. Person you hugged/who hugged you: i think it was lauren/sara, can't remember.

10. Time you were physically injured: cant remember.

Ten Favorites

1. Color: black.

2. School Subject: english.

3. Vacation: canada.

4. Book: some tess gerritsen book

5. Movie: the number 23.

6. Way to Earn Money: writing.

7. CD: kate voegele.

8. Song: dont have one.

9. Quote: i dont know. i have a lot. go ask sara. HAHA.

10. Song Lyric: You waited for me in the rainIn the parking lotCold hands, lips blueClothes stuck to youYou could have phoned me for a rideIt's a mess out thereyou said the rain's the rainSome air'd be good for you.

Ten Musical Things

1. Do you play an instrument?: yeah.

2. Are you listening to music right now?: yup.

3. If so, what song?: broken hearts and broken floors by dashbord confessionals.

4. Name a singer you used to listen to often: justin timberlake

5. A band?: sugarcult.

6. A singing group?: backstreet boys? idk any other.

7. Any genres of music that you won't tolerate?: r&b

8. Band/singer/group you recently discovered?: static X

9. Name a song you can't stand: umbrella by rihanna. god its so annoying.

10. Any song/artist you and your parents both like?: we have nothing in common. dont ask.

Ten Have You Evers

1. Been dumped?: yes.

2. Dumped someone?: no.

3. Been to another continent (which one)?: yeah, north america, australia.

4. Failed a test?: god, this is rhetorical.

5. Been drunk?: mhm.

6. Cried yourself to sleep?: yeah.

7. Been in a wedding?: yess.

8. Traveled by yourself?: no.

9. Kissed someone you didn't like?: yeah.

10. Done something you regretted?: yyesss.

Ten Currents

1. Music: indie.

2. Mood: bored.

3. Plans for today: finish my homework.

4. Wish/Hope: i wont have music tmr.

5. Should be doing: homework.

6. Talking to: no one.

7. Waiting for: dinner.

8. Grade/Occupation: year 5.

9. Reading: nothing.

10. Best Friend(s): belinda/sara

the air is running out

You waited for me in the rain
In the parking lot
Cold hands, lips blue
Clothes stuck to you
You could have phoned me for a ride
It's a mess out there
you said the rain's the rain
Some air'd be good for you.

sunday afternoons is homework time.
so these are due..
1000 word english essay (and i havent finished the book)
music anaylsis.
math homework.
physics practical and homework.

this is what is due next next week;
music investigation.
econs commentary.

and sara, i want my hard drive thing back,
with all your music inside.

hahaha, so now what?
my blog's used for organising my thoughts,
keeping track of what i have to do,
and shout outs.
nice.

time for the suite life of zac and cody. :)

how bad was i?

i hardly slept in a week.

and then last night,

it was crazy.

happy birthday my bitch. :)

i threw a surprise party for her last night.

it was fun.

at least i thought it was.

rolling around the rooftop,

truth or dare.

light sticks,

alcohol,

music,

awesome crazy people.

something i havent had for a long time.

let's do it again some other time.

i just watched prom night.

thriller.

awesome thriller.

i like it.

pycho, obsessive killing.

rating; 3.9/5

i'm so tired,

but i can't sleep.

i woke up at like 3 last night because of the thunder,

and i hardly slept.

god, im so hungry right now,

i could eat a cow.

i really wana get a hoodie.

there's no such things as goodbyes

we have our whole lives ahead of us

this is like me, with an economics presentation and a 1000 word english essay.

and something else im not going to say here.

due by the end of this week.

please tell me if sleep would be permitted this week.

and i wasted a tuesday night on gossip girl and OTH.

kinda worth it though,

after a whole day of lessons, toro-ing, brulee-ing and rehearsals.

i need to keep myself awake tmr,

i swear.

so tonight,

im going to sleep,

and do all my work tmr.

a book that i read only half way,

a presentation not even half done.

i cant describe the state of mind i am in right now.

because im so so tired.

and there are more rehearsals tmr.

rehearsals are getting more fun.

the acting that is.

not playing anymore though.

thats over the top already.

i've got to set my priorities now.

im so screwed up.

the term is ending.

and then theres the meet the parents and stuff.

i cant screw up now.

i cant screw up now.

i cant screw up now.

there's too much to do.

who knew a presentation could be so tough?

im kinda wasting some time here.

some precious sleeping time.

im about to drop dead already.

so so tired.

and this is bcos of sara man.

'rachael, blog!'

/makes face with sticky out tongue.

oh, did i tell you i got a new phone?

love love love my new phone.

everything would be alright soon.

it will,

right after this week.

holidays man.

its like japan. :)

right, sleep time bitches.

i need it.

you'll be my biggest mistake, the one that i didnt regret.

plan for tmr.
10am-wake up.
11am- start on economics commentary & homework.
2pm- done with economics commentary & homework. start on english 300 word essay.
3pm- done with english 300 word essay. practise piano/watch a movie.
5pm- done with both pratising the piano and/or watching a movie. start on tok presentation.
7pm- done with memorising tok presentation. go for dinner.
8/9pm-done with dinner. start on econs presentation?

if i can follow the plan tmr,
and be extremely hardworking,
i expect awesome end term grades.
but i have a feeling the end term grades wouldnt be that awesome.
it'll be... not that awesome.
ok. this sucks.
why am i doing homework again???

i'm a bitch, i'm a liar.

im the middle girl,
just not that hot,
and because there's a lizard in the bathroom.
there's a lizard in the bathroom.
im not going to bath.
there's a lizard in the bath room.

today is a sad friday night.
im at home.
there's a lizard in the bathroom.
my brother killed it for me.
i may bath,
i may not.
depends how much balls i have.
i think its known as a phobia.
well, i have many phobias,
like...
lizards,
shotputt (and sara made me join. thanks so much ah.),
lizards,
monkey bars,
lizards.
that's about it.
fine.
it isn't many.
monkey bars and shotputt doesnt count.
i made those up.
shhhhhhhhh.

im kinda high now.
i think its the too much of sara.
it's called sarawehangouttoomuchsoigohighbutistilllovehangingoutwithyoulisteningtoyourcrap disease.
yes, i caught it.

im such an absentminded idiot.
and i just realised it today.
i left my laptop at school.
and i went all the way back to get it.
i can't live without this baby.
i'd die of not doing homework,
no msn,
no movies,
no videos,
my ipod would die,
no pictures,
no blogging,
no facebook,
no crap games,
no music,
no looking at clothes online and wishing i could get them.
i will die.
i told you so.
sara told me things today.
good things,
bad things,
freaky things,
then realised it isnt that freaky.

rehearsals were alright today i guess,
we came late,
and i felt bad and stuff but whatever you know.
i'll be better.
acting is getting more and more fulfilling.
im starting to really really enjoy it.
but i really wana play the piano.
that's better than acting somehow,
cos i know im better at playing the piano than acting.
but it's getting there.

shopping tmr,
if i can get outta the house that is.
im going to get jeans and a hoodie, maybe 2 hoodies,
and tops,
and loads of vintage stuff,
if i can afford all these that is.
im getting broke.
broker than ever.
like ever in my whole entire life.
but i cant help it.
im running outta clothes.

i really need to go bath and do my commentary.
this sucks.
it's a friday night.
and im really sleepy.

of all the lonely heart, you're the one i'm thinking of

i like best friend time. it's nice.

met bel today.
we should do this more.
it's so fun.
we went for dinner at this ramen place.
i had ramen ramen ramen.
i found that amusing.
say it.
ramen ramen ramen.
i was like 'could i have ramen ramen ramen?'
hahahaha. it sounded stupid.
so we talked and walked and laughed and joked and remembered how we use to go here after school to read magazsines and cookbooks and talked about snacks then we saw them.
we hung out at cold storage btw,
cos it's fun.
and i wish we had more time.
let's hang out for a whole entire day.
i dont have to go home early, and you don't have to either.
hahaha.
usually, we'll talk about crushes and stuff,
and sometimes bitch and curse,
and then talk about facts and stuff,
its nice, like i said,
and i miss that.

so anyways,
i may pull an all nighter,
really depends how sleepy i am.
all i know is that im really hungry.
there's practical tmr,
and then theres econs which im dreading,
and then math, which im looking forward to cos its an easy topic.
binomial thrm that is.
ok freak, fine. live with it.

im thinking of cutting my hair.
i think i'll get sophia bush hair.
cos i like it,
and it looks good on me.
right, english.. econs.. sleep.

i watched you go

& this is my favourite quote.

i'm gonna meet my best friend and i miss her so very much.

labour day, first day of may,
and guess what?
the first day in weeks i've been doing a whole load of work.
except that, all is reading and let's just not talk about the writing part.

i read half of the bluest eye in the morning,
then i went to search for articles, and that already took ages.
i tried playing you are the music in me in chords and really,
let's hope they don't ask me to play it tmr,
cos im not done with any transposing.
god, what else?
i havent started writing my commentary,
but i did the outline of it.
i just hope she'll give me more time,
i mean, i have been putting in effort and working on it.
then after that, my 300 word essay,
which i can pass up next tuesday,
thank god,
and then there is my 1000 word essay due in 2 weeks,
music anaylsis due in 2 weeks,
and then some music thing where i have to compare 2 different genres of music,
that's due in a month and i reallyhave to start on it.
what else is there?
ah, a physics test next week.
and then, there's a presentation next thursday.
if miracles are exist,
i need one.
or,
someone just ask me out to do work,
cos i can't work at home.
i'll just end up watching something.

but other than this,
i think im fine. :)
i watched the hottie and the nottie today.
it was gross but real sweet at the end,
and i don't know why,
but i like watching people have makeovers,
it fascinates me somehow.
well, i think i have to get back to work for awhile.
just hope that my econs teacher wouldnt kill me or at least, forget to remember to remind us that she has to check our progress on it,
and let's hope that she wouldnt read my blog either.