first a spark, then a flame, now a fire, we explode.

i dont think tara and i would loose weight this holiday. cos we always end up eating, i swear. haha. but we have to. lol. she can, but i cant work out for nuts. cos im too lazy, or i get really tired easily, or i just lack te motivation to, which sucks.

i'm going to stay home today.. on a friday, and im not going out tonight either. friday night is a day by itself where everything happens, too bad i have a curfew. i want to be 18 now! or at least have my parents let me come home at like 2 or 3 in the morning which is really, very impossible.

so this week, it was nothing but piano lessons non stop. tennis with the guys, i havent seen them in ages! then cycling with tara, and we ended up cam whoring and eating. and then the next day, we went to do ur nails, and wanted to dye our hair but we didnt. and the only 2 events i have planned is a party on sunday and australia next week.

i dont want to go to australia. i've been there 24384952803424times and i dont like it there at all. and they want me to go to university there. and im not, cos i dont want to and i hate it there. i prefer holidays in europe but noooooo..we cant go there cos it's too cold. then there is the studying, noooo.. i cant go to the US cos it's too dangerous and expensive. but i dont care. im still going, cos i wanted to go there since i was a kid, and thats the only thing i have looked forward to since i was a kid.

damn. i'll be in australia for 8 days. which sucks. i hate it there. but i get loads of waffles and freddos. :D

oh well. dexter awaits.

i want to teleport

1. sometimes, it's not nice having friends from all around.

you don't get to celebrate anything with them, like christmas.

2. over the years, i learnt not to fall in love.

but i never learnt how not to.

3. the holiday suck when there's nothing to do.

sitting around, doing nothing at home can only last you 3 days,

and then you're bored.

4. i stay at home all day, but i don't have enough sleep.

5. i'm fat, and i'm eating so much at home.

i'm getting fatter.

cos we'll never know

you don't know when she'd stare,

you don't know how she'd look at you.

you don't know what she thinks,

when your lips are used.

you don't know what she wants,

you don't know what she mimes,

but maybe, just maybe,

it's you that's left behind.

and its candies and chocolate all over again.

nothing taste as sweet as candy when we were kids.

it seems too sweet for our taste now.

so what is our candy now when we are older?

cigarettes and alcohol.

bitterness, yum.

its just reading

I MISS BEST FRIEND TIME.

i came across someone's blog,
and i realise, i havent hung out with my girlfriends in the longest time.
and i realise that i need someone to roll around and be crazy with.
damn, i miss those times,
even though now may seem really nice,
i miss best friend time so muchhhh.

going around cold storage,
underage drinking,
talking about boys, all the time.
crying, laughing so hard, phone calls.
i miss that.

oh well, maybe it's time to move on,
but i dont know, i need that times back again.
now, you feel like you're getting old so suddenly,
and the world is spinning faster and faster.
we always want to relive those moments,
but too bad time machines don't exist yet.
im tired of everything suddenly.

i wana just elope, disappear.
just for a month or 2.
then come back.
the world shouldn't spin so fast,
im getting dizzy.