i kissed a girl and i liked it.

.... .......... ....... ............ .... ..... .....

i think that is so damn cute. :)


today was just doing nothing,
as usual.
i realise that even if i stayed at home on sundays,
i wouldnt do work till the evening.
shiiiit.
im getting lazier and lazier.
im damn sleepy now.

i really have to get back to how i was in term one.
actually doing my work, lol.


rachaellllllllll.
has to snap back soon,
or she'll loose focus on everything she has planned.


it's raining now.
i love rain sometimes.
its awesome.
just the thunder and lighting.
i like staying at home.
i wish i could just stay here and do nothing.


i like to think im psychic.
cos i know i am.
because my dreams will come true, eventually.
i have psychic dreams.
and it's awesome.

that is just amazing.

camp's over.
it was more fun than i expected.
yes we had talks,
but everything else was really fun.



Scared to fall in love?
kinda, it sucks to get broken.


What's the connection between you and the last person that called you?
er, my mom?


Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
nope. unless it dies.


What happened at 3:00 pm today?
i was bathing.


What is your favorite thing to eat with peanut butter?
chocolateeeee.


What do you want in your life right now?
good grades.

Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?
hoodz up!

What do you smell like?
my soap.

Whats your favorite thing to have on your bed?
Blankets and pillows and my bear.


What's the last text in your inbox say?
Okay. :)

How's your heart lately?
never been better.

Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
yesss. :)


Do you have Justin Timberlake music on your iPod?
yes.

What are you doing tonight?
erm, maybe dinner.


Can you sleep in jeans?
If I'm tired enough.


What's your favorite possesion?
my collection of lipgloss, it'll last me forever.

Something you just don't understand?
loving imperfection.


Where were you on July 4th, 2007?
haha. god knows. that was a year ago.


Who was the last person you were in a car with?
erm, my mom.


What is the last thing someone bought you?
erm, a keychain thing from the UK.


When was the last time you saw number 5 on your top friends?
today.


Do you trust people easily?
yes, i trust people too easily

Relationship Status?
taken.


Do you care what others think about you?
not really, i like to hear about it and laugh about it.

Will you ever hug the last person you hugged again?
for sure. :D


What do you look forward to in the next 3 months?
good grades, and everything to be the same as it is now.


Do you put your subject on before you type the bulletin or after?
before.

Who was the last friend in your house?
erm, i forgot, i think it was my girlfriend. haha.


Are you happy?
very.

Is there someone you want to confront?
yes, but too lazy.


Song playing right now?
take this to heart by mayday parade.

What are you doing tomorrow?
staying at home, doing homework.

What's annoying you right now?
my brother.

What are you thinking about right now?
when im going to sleep.


Do you wish at 11:11?
nope.

Next vacation you're goin on?
i dont know.


What do you hear?
mayday parade.

Would you rather have a boyfriend/girlfriend or friend with benefits?
right now, i dont know. both are good. but really, depends on the person.


When was the last time you talked to your #2?
erm. today?

What were you doing at 10 am?
cycling.

What time did you wake up today?
7.40am.

Do you prefer to call or text someone?
depends on the person i wana talk to.

Last time you cried?
i forgot.

Who knows the most about you?
erm, sara?

Where do you go when you want to be alone?
for a walk.


When was the last time you ate spaghetti?
haha. erm. yesterday.


How many pair of flip flops do you own?
one.

Who was the last person to see you cry?
i dont know when i cried so i dont know.

Why were you crying?
i dont knowwwwwwwww.


Favorite reality show to watch?
i dont really like reality tv.

we are our influences

-What inspires you to be creative?
people and books.


-Can you play a musical instrument? If not, what would you like to learn?
piano, keyboard. but i would want to learn the violin, the guitar, the drums and saxophone.

-Would you rather sit down in front of an easel or in front of a notebook and pen?
notebook and pen. they are my best friends. :)


-When you take the lords name in vain, do you feel guilty about it?
erm. not anymore.


-Would you rather go play paintball with a group of friends or go-karting?
paintball!


-What's the most annoying thing about the music industry?
there are a lot of bands that sound alike.


-If you were going to get a tattoo of a famous movie, which movie would it be?
the notebook. lol.

-Which accent sounds the worst?
i dont think there is one, they all are just unique, that's all.

-Have you ever read a novel from the Erotica section of the bookstore?
nope.


-Do you feel guilty when you eat fast food?
yeah, especially when it comes to fries.


-Describe your last boyfriend in one word:
gay. :D

-How many children do you want?
2. or maybe 3.


-What's one thing that people say on msn that annoys you?
haha, ok.


-Coffee or hot chocolate?
hot chocolate. im allergic to coffee.


-How much effort does it take you to do your hair so you're satisfied?
depends on the day, and my mood.


-Due to a past break up, what's one thing you've learned about yourself?
i am very emotional, so i stop being that, and toughen up. it's the only way you won't be so vulnerable in these kinda situations again.


-What's something you hope to gain this summer?
a tan. but summer's just over. lol.


-No matter how bad you're feeling, what usually cheers you up?
talking to someone, especially the love of my lifeeeeeeeeeeee, rahrah. :D


-When flirting with a guy, do you think you do it well or end up making a fool out of yourself?
a fool out of myself. ALWAYS.


-How comfortable is your bed?
very. my brother loves it. and he cant get off it. it's so annoying.


-What's one "classic" book that you've read? ???
erm. the picture of dorian gray?

-Would you rather spend a relaxing weekend on a sunny beach, or camping in the mountains?
camping in the mountains.


-What do you think of your middle name? Is there any special meaning behind it?
i dont have a middle name.


-What's one popular song right now you find yourself liking?
i dont like any popular songs at the moment.

-What's one thing you admire in your parents?
they never really quarreled, i guess they are just supportive of one another and they compromise everything.


-What's your current mood?
tired.

-Is there someone who you want to be closer to?
yessssssssssss.

this is where i finally learn to breath again.

my feet are blistering, and it hurts.
so much for heels.

things i learnt this week;
1. HEELS HURT. no matter how they look, they freaking hurt. so i guess we have to live with it.
2. never bike in sand, ever. unless you really need to loose a lot of weight. HAHA. then go bike in the desert.
3. holidays are meant for you to do nothing, which brings me to my next point,
4. doing nothing is awesomeeeeeeeeee. after like 2093480324weeks of being so busy and stuff, doing nothing is freaking awesome.
5. some people in my school are just so freaking rich, and i mean freaking rich.

that's all for this week i guess. HAHA.
today is like one of the best days of my holiday.
fine, it is the best day of my holiday so far,
yesterday was damn fun too.
shamus should stop measuring my retardedness with other people.
cos he knows im going to win no matter what.

i realised that i havent wrote in my notebooks for a long long time.
i need my inspiration again.
sheeeeeeeesh.
i cant write much about anything these days,
poetically.
cos there's no extreme emotions anymore.
everything is so dull and neutral.
nothing really makes me feel at the edge.
it's so average and normal.
like i said.
i need to find my inspiration again.
maybe i should REALY start reading again.
i havent done that in agessssss,
and i miss it.

right
i really should sleep now.
school starts in 2days
i wish days would stop as it is for lke 30945830495weeks.
i like how it is now.
no school.
and all my friends are back.
but then school is starting.
this suckssssssss.
oh well.

and even then we'll start again, and just pretend that nothing ever happened.

this is what i did for the last 3 weeks of my hols.

(criket criket)

yes. that. :)
NOTHING.

the hols are almost over.

let's see what i have to do..

1. study physics.

2. read.

3. write an article.

but i guess the rest of this week goes like this..

1. biking.

2. shopping.

3. hanging out.

tmr's biking day again.

i love biking day.

it's also work out day.

yay, work out day.

im so fat now,

that's the down side of the hols.

on the bright side,

im hugable.

HAHA.

im so tired now.

but i cant wait for tmr,

exhausting biking day.

yay.

night world.

we wont stop till somebody calls the cops

this picture is specially taken for esther.

HAHA. i saw PENGUINS!

HAHA. did you see any in chiang mai.

i dont think so.

i saw pen-freaking-guins and you didnt.

and i think jelly fishes are really pretty.

like really really pretty.

this is a harpsichord.

i think its freaking cool.

this is a no face version of me and wenkai at the tallest building in osaka.

and last of all, my creation of erm. leftover food?

i think it's pretty. :)

thats to summarise my japan trip i guess.

oh and my piano performance. haha.

i like performing.

that's all i can say.

alrighttttttt.

so there's today.

i went out with tara, brent and roshan.

i havent seen them in AGES,

since africa.

haha.

it was fun hanging out again.

i have no idea where my wife is now.

i think some rural part of thailand,

but then again,

it's my wife so u cant be too sure.

and i miss my wife.

that's for sure.

i think she's coming back tmr.

i thought of visiting her today,

with brent.

but there's something wrong with her phone or something.

oh well.

)(%#%^*()(*&^%$%^&* thanks.

im so pissed right now.
everyone should just die.
die die die.
OMGGGGGGGG.
im so PISSED.

on the other hand,
i cycled a whole 4 hours today.
my legs would suffer tmr.
so i dont think i'll go out.
we'll see.

pictures up tmr i guess.
but i look like crap.
im breaking out again.
like 4 huge ones on my face this time.
soooo grosssss and uglyyyyyyy.
they should all die,
and disappear.

oh well.
my legs hurt.
so much for the ultimate exercise for MY holiday.
more workouts like that and i'll be hawttt.
hahahaha.
but no.
im a lazy bum.
and im going to go shopping.
thats the only exercise i'll get for the rest of my holidays.
die already, sheeeeeeeeeeesh.

im so tired.
it's indescribable.
omfffffffffffffffffg.
X.X

and this is what you get.

so these are my plans for the rest of the holiday..
because i'm becoming EXTREMLY lazy,
i'm going to bath every 2 days.
too lazy to bath everyday.
and i'm at home,
and no one's coming over.
and i dont plan to go out anytime soon.
so i think it's fine. haha.

im going to be online whenever im awake.
im really bored, and other than reading and watching tv,
i cant think of anything else better to do.
ask me to study and work out?
read the second sentence above.

maybe i'll actually leave the house.
MAYBE.
when i feel like it.
then i have to spend money.
which i dont really plan to.
cos everyone's birthday is in july.
and you know what that means...

im tired.
and i think have to wake up early tmr.
this sucks.
oh well.

most of us are not who we are

1/what are your initials/
RTHE

2/what is your zodiac/
libra

3/what's your location like/
my room.

4/what are you up to, besides this survey/
chatting online, yelling at my auntie.

5/what are your plans for tonight and tomorrow night/
doing nothing.

6/what do you do at 4:20/
either watching tv or online.

7/what do you crave right now/
mos burger fries and mustard.

8/what do you think of electric toothbrushes/
erm. cool?

9/are you involved with anyone other than your hand/
erm. sara. cos she's like my wife.

10/would you really be able to last in the entertainment industry/
maybe.

11/you can never eat enough of what/
chocolate!

12/what's outside your window/
someone else's window.

13/what do you WANT to do RIGHT NOW/
erm. a lot of stuff. and like some idiot.

14/what do you HAVE to do before the day is over/
nothing.

15/who is annoying you right now/
my brother.

16/do you draw/
yeah.

17/what is the biggest part of your life/
my friends.

18/your feelings about pain are/
if its emotional, i'll go get piercings to make it hurt less. HAHA.

19/do you believe horoscopes/
kinda.

20/how are you feeling at the moment/
annoyed, happy.

21/what is the next purchase you're planning to make/
erm. food.

22/what do you want to know more about/
everything

23/are you in love/
ha. ha. no.

24/what movie do you enjoy immensely/
er. i keep watching amelie.

25/what book do you recommend to everyone you know/
books by tess gerritsen. awesome descriptions of crime scenes.

26/what is your political stance/
erm. dont have a stance.

27/what color do you want to dye your hair/
blue or red.

28/what could you spend an infinite amount of time doing/
talking and writing.

29/what type of accent do you want/
american.

30/who is the ultimate human being/
me.

31/what is your ideal mate like/
special.

32/who is your newest aquaintance/
eh

33/who is your oldest friend/
bel.

34/where do you want to run away to.
canada.

35/what do you find funny that nobody else seems to/
a lot of stuff. a lot of stupid stuff.

36/what bores you that excites others/
i dont know.

37/what do other people think is funny that you don't/
erm. cant think of anything now.

38/on the internet you spend your time doing what/
surveys, talking to people, reading stuff.

39/who do you want to meet/
james laffery and michael cera.

40/what do you think of THE BEATLES/
awesome.

41/does age matter when looking for a partner/
kinda. not too young and not too old.

42/what makes you wonder "where do these people come from?!"/
erm. people in general.

43/do you have any pets/
nope.

44/do you like your bedroom/
noooooooooo.


45/what's for dinner/
i dont know, its only 3.

i wished i didnt care so much

i wish i didn't care about anything.



What name do you go by:
Rachael.

Who is the one person you trust with everything:
Belinda.

What did you do yesterday:
Wake up, eat breakfast, pack my luggage, went to the airport, shop in the airport, get on the plane, watch movies, get off the plane, took a cab home, go online, talk to people, go out for dinner, went to sleep.

What is the last thing you ate:
dinner.

Where are you right this second:
in my bedroom.

Where is your cell phone:
on the shelf.

Do you have a diploma or GED:
none.

Do you work full or part time:
not working.

Have you ever given money to a friend:
i don't know.

What is the last song you heard:
With me by sum 41.

What kind of car do you drive:
i can't drive YET.

Are you a parent:
hell no.

Something that you are proud of:
i can survive without my parents.

Is there someone who has to be better then you:
or so it seems.

Who is your best friend:
Belinda khooooo.

In this last month have you spent over $500 on something:
erm. no.

What is something you have always wanted and will have:
a car.

Your significant other is…
an idiot.

Do you claim to have the best ways to make yourself feel better:
Yes. i write.

Last time you went out of state:
like last sunday, to japan.

Do you travel often:
Not really.

Do you have children:
nooooo.

What is your favorite thing to do with them:
Eat them.

What is something that you will make sure your kid experiences:
what it's like to have both of it's parents, travelling, having tons of fun, not studying that hard.

What is one characteristic you want your child(ren) to have:
they have to play an instrument.

Do you know any bad parents:
i guess so.

Are you a health freak:
Not really.

What is one thing no man will ever do to you:
eat me.

Family is what:
you never really appreciated.

What is the best part of your day so far:
i just woke up.

What are you craving:
green tea icecream and mos burger fries with mustard.

Do you have more then $300 in your bank account:
yessss.

What are you doing for your next birthday:
i dont know.

This time next year:
i'll be stressed out with IB.

What don’t you understand:
why things come when we stop looking for it.

Have you ever felt replaced:
Yes I have.

Do you have any nieces or nephews:
nopee.

When is payday:
nonexistant for the moment.

Any plans this weekend:
sleeep.

Do you have a favorite scent:
some perfume.

Was this survey passing of time:
i am bored and hungry, but bored.


DAMN, my piercing hurts like crap. WTF is wrong with it.

we came down to watch the world walk by

japan japan japan.

that's where im going.

tonight,

the airport.

sometimes,

i hate the airport.

sometimes,

that's like escape.

this time,

it's dreading.

i want to stay home for the next 6 days.

my parents have just gone to thailand.

im home alone.

im not done with packing.

im tired.

guess what i did yesterday on impulse?

sara was like we have to get a hole in our body today.

just one.

i was like hahahha, ok.

but was like WTF,

but i was like hahah. ok.

you get the picture.

so we went to the shop,

and asked around and stuff,

then we went to eat,

and then came back,

and then sara wanted to backout,

but she was ready with everything.

so i was like hahaha. let's just go.

sara backed out.

then i threatened her,

then she was like omgggg. i can't believe you are making me do this.

i was like hahaha. my turn.

so i sat at the chair,

and then i got so freaked out.

i was like sara sara sara. hand. !!!!!

then oww. ok. done.

but it kinda hurts.

till now.

like the next morning.

fine. not really hurt,

but i keep sleeping on the side.

cant help it.

saraaaaa, damn im going to miss you.

no more stupid shit we talk about.

no more looking at me eating ben's and jerry's on a stick.

no more burping when i tell u something stupid and then laughing.

but you know what?

whenever i think of you,

i'll just start laughing.

i'll burst out laughing so bad sometimes.

and i was on the bus yesterday,

and i was thinking of something stupid we did,

and i wanted to laugh so bad,

but i was in the bus,

and it would be so embarressing if i just started laughing.

oh well.

i'll miss all the shit we do.

damn. only 6 months and we have so many damn memories.

like maggie.

maggie is awesome.

maggie the stone.

maggie the stone table.

im so tired.

and i wana sleep.

but i've got to practise my piano.

and pack.

and practise somemore piano.

i am sure i'll come back FAT.

jap food.

just not sushi tei kinda food.

but jap food.

and all that crap goowey stuff,

thats awesome.

i'll be back filled with awesome stuff inside me.

i'll be more hugable, thats on the up side.

the down side would be i would have to exercise and loose all of it.

all that awesomeness inside of me would be gone. awwwww.

okok. im a pig.

i'll tell u this now.

but im not growing fat.

at least i dont feel like i am.

i ate one breakfast, 2 lunches, and a huge dinner yesterday.

tell me im going to get so fat.

HAHHAA.

pigggggging out man.

my newly created word thing, whatever.

it's just one of the signs that shows its the holidays man.

holidays = food = no excercise =fat.

i'll loose it all when we start school.

that's for sure.

always happens.

always.

im going to be gone for 6 days.

and this would be all you're going to read.

HAHAHAHA.

live on a year and something months worth of stuff to read,

all these written my me.

hahaha.

ahhhhh. japan.

shit.