-.-

hah. this blog is like cb shit now.

Not gonna update here anymore. 

i have another website.

ed westwick is damn hot.

k bye. 

funny shit

It's easily broken

1. I have obsessions I would get over sooner or later. It's a phase. It'll pass.

2. I only sing properly, out loud when I'm alone. No one would hear me properly, ever. Unless you are my brother or sister. I never sang in front of my parents. I actually like singing. 

3. I don't really like talking to people. I just get very pissed off in the morning when people talk to me.

4. I like to draw and laugh and write, not at the same time.

5. I AM SO FUCKING BORED!

it's not her you should change your mind about

I suppose to be studying now, 

but i am soooo not in the mood to.

i've been studying the last 2 days though.

I have theory of firm and externalities to cover before im done with micro.

god, studying takes forever.

and this is only the beginning.

tmr, it is econs again.

SOMEONE, STUDY WITH ME, 

or at least give me the motivation to.

go for the gig tmr or not?

HM. 

I HAVENT DECIDED YET.

that only boils down to one question.

Do I wanna spend 10 bucks?!?!

I cannot decide.

one more thing.

someone teach me how to change the layout on tumblr.

I hate it when I want to use something new,

like xanga, and tumblr.

and i cant make it look pretty, my way.

I'm too lazy to go learn it in every site i google.

SOMEBODY TEACH ME.

anyways, 

hm.

back to restaurant city.

seconds on top

I've been watching too much MTV recently.

and noticed a few things. 

I really like kristen stewart's style.

she's like awkward hot.

and i like her outfit in the MTV movie awards. 

It's awesomee.

She shouldnt go blonde again.

Dark hair makes her look, well, dark.

yay. new moon is coming out soon.

oh oh. don't you think she and robert pattinson make a good couple?

Katy perry is hawttttt

and she can sing damn well, live or not.

some artist can't sing for shit live.

and don't you love katy perry's style?

it's awesomely pretty retro. 

lol.

Her videos are goood. 

thinking of you is so freaking ass sad, and guy in kyle xy is inside. (: 

remix version of waking up in vegas video is awesome too. Guy in the hottie and the nottie is inside. heh.

right, 

so i actually did work yesterday.

like topic by topic revision for math.

that took like what, 6 hours.

and i have 3 chapters left.

today, it's math and econs.

or world lit and math

or math and MI.

i can't decide yet.

ughhh. i lost my phone charger.

:( 

my phone is dead. 

5 mins and 20 seconds

went out to the lib with tessa and andy yesterday.

tessa was so pissed at me,

cos i was sick and kept saying i couldnt go.

lol.

and she doesnt want to go out with me again.

cos im like all. omg. that has so many calories.

that has transfat. blahblahblah.

i am going to lose the next 5 kg.

and get my piercing. 

hah.

I have to start on work now. 

tata.

MATH!

since i've been gone

1. Your ex is on the side of the road, on fire. What do you do?

Keep yelling, "STOP, DROP AND ROLL! YOU DUMBSHIT. STOP RUNNING AROUND!"

2.Your best friend tells you she's pregnant. What is your reaction?

omgomgomg. how-why-how-how-what-why-how... cool...

3.When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face?

like. today.

4. Congratulations! You just had a son. What's his name?

Liam, or Trey.

5. Congratulations! You just had a daughter. What's her name?

Taylor

6. What are you craving right now?

chocolate.. hmmm.

7. What was the last thing you cried about?

OH! Korean show! They are so sad...

8. When you buy something and your change is a penny, do you keep it?

Whatever i feel like, GOSH.

9. What color is your tissue box?

gold.

10. Is there a ceiling fan in your room & if so does it have dust on it?

No ceiling fan. Ceiling fans piss me off. They are so annoying. They keep going round and round and round and it makes me all giddy.

11. What is the last voice mail you received about?

I don't have voicemail!

12. Scariest thing you've experienced in the last year?

hm. My first 360 rollercoaster.

13.Have you ever had a garage sale?

Yeap!

14. What is the last beverage you had?

Water.

15. Are you happy right now?

Whatever you know, I feel numb.

16. Who came over last?

My brother's friend. 

17. Do you drink energy drinks?

Nope!

18. Have your brothers or sisters ever told you that you were adopted?

Nope! My sister and I don't look anything alike but, *shrugs*

19. Dark or light jeans?

Dark!

20. What was the last movie you watched at home?

Memoirs of a Geisha was on TV last night.

21. What is in your pocket?

I don't have pockets.

25. When is your birthday?

The last day of september.

26.What are you going to do after this?

Turn on the aircon.

27. Who was the last person you went shopping with?

Tessaaaaa!

28. What about your favorite dessert?

Anything chocolate.

29. Do you have the same name as one of your relatives?

Nope! That would be so weird.

30. Do you like pickles?

It's alright.

31. Is someone in love with you?

heh. Ask that person yourself. (I don't even know who the person is though.)

32. What color is your couch?

Black.

33. Has anyone ever mistaken you for a family member?

huh. no. but anyone mistaken me with another family member, yes. 

34. Does someone like you right now?

I guess so. LOL.

35. Do you know anyone in jail/prison?

Yeap!

36. Who was the last person to send you a text message?

My dad.

37. How many hours did you sleep for last night?

like.. 8.

38. Do you swear at your parents?

Once. That was it.

39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?

Hurr. If I had that power, I would be cooler.

40. What is the last thing you spent money on?

The bus fare.

41. Name one thing no one can ever change your mind about?

My gender status.

42. What is the last thing you ate that had onions in it?

Like, the burger, or something, or the indian beef fries thing andy stuffed in my mouth. I think.

43. Crunchy or Puffy Cheetos

Puffy.

44. Have you ever blocked someone from facebook?

Nope. Don't think so. Unless they were all weird gross horny stalkers.

45. Who was it?

Never met those kinda guys.

46. Do you wear a name tag at work/school?

In my previous school, yeah. AND THEY HAD TO PUT MY CHINESE NAME. god.

47. What color is your iPod?

black!

48. What is your favorite key chain on your keys?

No keychains. Keychains are weird.

49. What were you doing at midnight last night?

Sleeping dudeeeeee.

50. If the last person you kissed said that you were the only one they wanted, would you believe them?

Hurrr. Who was the last person I kissed? errrrrrr. If he told me now, I wouldn't believe. I'd be like what the fuck? 

51. Do you believe that any of your ex's think about you?

yeah. exes think of only 2 things. How to get together with you, and how to break up with you. After the break up, ...........................................

52. Would you date someone 8 years older than you?

If he were hot and successful.

53. What were you doing at 1am this morning?

Sleeping! God.

54. Will your next kiss be a mistake?

It'll be a drunken/truth or dare kiss. Trust me.

55. Did the one person who hurt you the most in your life apologize?

Yeah, No, Maybe. I don't know. I can't remember.

56. Do you know a secret about your ex and if he/she pisses you off will you tell?

Nope!

57. What's with you and the last person you kissed?

huh. Nothing.

58. Have you ever had your heart broken? If so how many times? How did it feel?

2wice. It sucked. but whatever, I'll get over it. 

59. What time did you wake up this morning?

around 0830 or something.

60. What's on your bed right now?

My pillows and bear and lions. (:

61. Are you someone who worries too often?

Nope. Yeah.

62. Do you like to cuddle/snuggle?

Yeap!

64. What color is your hair?

Blackish redish purplish black.

65. Honestly, if you could go back 1 month and change something would you?

Yeah. Study harder.

66. Is there anybody you wish you could be spending time with right now?

Yeah. My friends I haven't seen in 2 weeks!

67. Have you ever fallen asleep in someones arms?

I think so.

68. Are you wasting your time on someone?

I'm not dating or finding. Whatever. They find me. 

69. Are you excited about anything today?

Yeah. I was. First time i'm out in A-G-E-S-S-S-S-S--S.

70. On average, when do you cry the most?

When i watch korean movies/dramas.

71. What does the newest text message in your inbox say?

Yeah.

73. Who are 5 people your last texts are from?

My dad, Tessa, Aditya, Piano teacher & Steps.

74. Do you currently have a hickey?

Nope!

75. Last person you texted?

My dad! You asked that already.

76. Miss anyone?

Yes, sadly. I'm not suppose to.

77. Have you ever skipped class?

errrr. Skipped a whole day of school to skip class. 

78. What's the longest you've ever talked on the phone?

like 5 hours or something.

79. How many people are you texting?

now? No one. I'm too lazy to text.

80. Do you have a friend you can tell stuff to and you're sure they won't tell?

yeap! I have more than A friend that i can tell stuff to and won't tell.

81. Where was the last place you went?

Peninsular.

82. Let's be honest, have you ever been played by someone?

Yeah. LOL.

83. Have you ever kissed anyone who's name started with a M?

Hmmm. Yeah.

84. Who is the last person that called you and what did they say?

My mom asking me whether i'd be home for dinner. lolsss.

85. Do you trust all your friends?

Most.

86. Do you know anyone that smokes pot?

Yeap!

87. Are you usually wide awake in the morning?

Nope!

88. If you could change your eye color what would it be?

Grey.

89. Do you dance in the car?

Heh. When i'm retardedly high. 

90. Do you always answer your phone?

Nope! Only when I'm outtttt.

91. Would you like to be in a relationship right now?

Er. No.

92. Who's hoodie did you wear last?

Mine!

93. Do you sleep on your tummy?

Sometimes.

94. Is love really a beautiful thing?

If it were less ugly.

95. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?

ER. NO, YES, WHATEVER.

you just asked me that

96. Are you in a good mood right now?

I'm in an OMG-THE-WEATHER-SUCKS-SO-BAD mood.

97. Is there a guy/girl that knows everything or mostly everything about you?

Yeap!

98. Do you think your last ex will eventually want to be with you again?

Hurr. No.

99. Do you think you will be in a relationship three months from now?

IB is muh boyfriend.

100. How many people on your top friends have you slept in the same bed with?

Top friends. Like I don't know. What top friends??

101. Have you ever liked someone who treated you like crap?

Yeah. No shit.

102. What are you listening to?

My sister playing the piano.

103. Is there a difference between the word 'best friend' and 'friend'?

Yes. A best friend is someone you trust and tell everything to. A friend, you may not trust and tell everything to, and a friend may not be there all the time. But a best friend is always there.

104. When is the last time someone of the opposite sex gave you a hug?

Like. I forgot. Before school ended?

105. Can you touch your toes?

Yeap!

106. Do you have any interesting tattoos/piercings?

Going to have. (:

107. What were you doing at midnight last night?

god. I was sleeping!

108. What's your favorite season?

Autumn.

109. Last thing you ate/drank?

Dinner and barley and water.

110. How many siblings do you have?

2

111. Needles aren't so horrible?

They're not horrible at all.

112. What time did you go to bed last night?

12.

113. Have you ever made out in a bathroom?

Yeap!

115. What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you had?

Water.

116. Are you scared of spiders?

Love em!

117. Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?

Nope. Unless it is time to study more.

118. Ever been swimming in a lake or river?

Maybe. I can't remember.

119. Last person you drove with in a car?

my mom.

120. Who should start the kiss, the girl or the guy?

Both. 50/50. But I'm damn lazy, so the guy. LOL.

121. What did you last buy?

Skinnies.. apparently.

122. What’s irritating you right now?

The doorbell.

123. What radio station(s) do you listen to?

Radio stations? That's so 2005. lolsss.

124. Are you afraid of the dark?

nope.

125. Are you listening to music right now?

Sister's piano playing "music".

126. Is there anyone you wish was still in your life?

Yeap!

127. Do you get distracted easily?

Yeah.

128. Was this the best year of your life?

No way. I was better when i was a 15/16.

129. Who are your best friends?

Belinda!

130. What was going through your mind during your last kiss?

Errr... I really cannot remember. How long ago is that?

131. Is it easier to forgive or forget?

Forgive.

132. Do you flirt a lot?

Nope!

133. Would you live with someone without marrying them?

Yeah. 

134. Have you ever had a dream about people you love dying?

Yeah, and holy shit. I cried so bad.

135. Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?

Yeah. When i was a kid.

136. Who was the last person that made you feel safe?

My friends.

137. Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurts?

Yeap!

138. Have you ever broken someone’s heart?

I guess.

139. Do you believe that you are a good boyfriend or girlfriend?

Hm. I'm loyal.

140. What did you do yesterday?

Sleeep and eat and watch TV and go online.

141. What time did you go to bed at and when did you wake up?

12 and 0830. Gawd. 

142. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?

I really don't know about that one. In dating, there is one rule i follow, that is if the relationship doesnt work out, and we break up, it wasnt meant to be. Therefore, no second chances. The second chance would be a waste of time.

143. Believe in love at first sight?

Yeah. 

144. What phrase or saying do you use the most?

No ah, walao.

145. What is stopping you from confessing to your crush?

I don't have a crush.

not cool

Quizzes like to tell me i'm an emo. 

I'm not emo.

>:(

yesterday, it said i'm indian.

today, it said i'm a minah.

that makes me an indian emo minah.

wtf is that. 

not cool.

stoned out

Stoned out days like today are great. 

I got to watch CSI, friends and my wife and kids. 

Howie do it is a stupid show. 

I'll rate it 1/5.. whatever.

So i did three things today.

1. watch ants drown.

2. watch stuff boil.

3. tried doing WL.

the third one kinda failed. heh.

the ants in my house are fast. 

leave a cup of something on the coffee table,

5 mins later, you've got an mob running through your hands while you rush them to the sink. then you leave them in a pot of water, but no, the cup does not fill. they are trapped. so you slowly drown them. one of them tried to swim out, but it couldnt leave the bit of food it got. ah well. too bad buddy.

stoning and watching stuff boil.. hm. its just fun to keep adjusting the fire to see what happens. fire is always fun. heh. one day, lets go burn stuff. whooooooooooo. (:

i am bored and i need to get inspiration from medea to write about her. i like medea. but she really needs to give me ideas. i can't write anything good. gah. but her killer dress is cooool. then again, fiery dresses are really cool. cos there's fire. meh. 

i need to get better and lose weight all at the same time. no lunch for me.. ever. yay. except today. and after 5. 5 is dinner, but i'll be hungry again at 9. then i'll go to sleep hungry. and then i wake up hungry. and then im full after breakfast, then im hungry at 5. 2 meals a day is good. that's how you lose weight. don't eat. exercise is not for lazy people like me. unless people ask me to go play tennis. heh. 

i shall start on music tmr. i need someone to do math and physics with me. WHERE'S THE STUDY BUDDIES? stepsssss. we shall study at coffee bean soon. hahaha. im bored. playing like 100++ rounds of solitaire does not really help. 

" Hi. I'm pretty. What's your name?"

im better, not much better.

god, i've been nowhere in 3 days.

im stuck at home, 

head spinning, medicatedly high, bobbingmy head up and down to cure the pain,

dorwning more pills into the system.

i can't find my chapstick,

tissue flooded table + floor.

im contagious.

cool.

i need to start on work,

but not in this state.

to make matters better, 

i've been losing 1kg a day.

maybe it's swine, 

god knows.

hm.

stuck, stuck, stuck, 

in this room.

lalalala.

my brother keeps going 'what is wrong with you?'

i do the randomest things,

like smacking him for no reason,

and he laughs at me.

then i laugh at myself.

this goes on for 5 mins.

and then i'll do something stupid, 

and laugh at myself.

drugs are not good, folks. 

panadol + robintussin + god knows what herbs she gives me+ panadol cold

I AM BORED OUTTA MY SKULLS.

oh. i tried watching medea online today.

god. 1960s movie.

fucking hell.

it sucked so bad.

and it didnt even follow the book.

people took like 2 mins to walk down the freaking stairs.

i had to fast forward so many times.

it should be called 'italian speaking middle easterns climbing stairs' or something.

now i have to read the book.

:(

not that i havent read it,

i just dont want to re read it.

gahhhhh

i should keep this flu up, 

till i reach ideal weight. 

5 more days to go!

whoooooooooo!

why is it that our mood depends on whether the ones we love?

it never makes sense does it?

this is so blah

the next 48 hours consists of..

drinking weird herbal tea

downing loads of pills

the heap of used tissue

sleep

staring at this screen

faces like this: XP

after the teas, that is.

a mountain of water

and hardly any food.

the cure to my dizziness from the plane ride,

and losing the weight i gained from the trip.

perfect.

ps. i'll blog about the trip when im better

pps. i need to get better real soon.. I NEED TO DO WORK AND I WANNA GO OUT!

maybe cigarettes would do the trick for this flu. 

X.X

One of a kind

im sick

and i slept 5 hours in the last 2 days.

:(

Only if you listen

Hey you. I'm in Taiwan now. And I'm so boredddd. Blogging is the only thing that's saving me from dying cos I haven't shopped in god knows how long. So now you know how bored I am on this trip. To summarize what I've been doing so far, I'm was in Taipei half a day. Spent 2 days in the mountains, and one day in the city and today in the theme park. I'm sorry if I got the day timings all wrong. I can't keep track of anythin now. But I've been thinking a lot on bus trips abt the hinge o shouldn't care much about. I've found out something I wanna do in college and tommy keeps dying. He's a useful friend. :D so today, I went on the first 4 loops 360 ride and got damn giddy. It was good though. Watched trannies dance to nobody by the wonder girls. And watched fireworks, and had too much icecream. Tmr, it's shopping day. FINALLY!! Post up pictures when I'm back. I miss you guys! Btw, blogging on an iPod sucks. Gah. :|

darling, only a fool couldn't see through you

it wasn't unproductive today.

i went to school to do up my cas,

had piano lesson, where she keep asking me what my problem is.

had physics tuition where he told me that he had to go to uni and cant teach us anymore.

and played tennis with the boys, one of the most retarded tennis sessions ever.

and gossip timeeee.

heh. (:

fun. 

i am so tired.

and my hair is wet.

i would not go to bed with wet hair.

cos it'll get all gross and smelly and odd shapey.

i'm leaving tmr folkssssss.

yay.

7 days of nothing but shopping and eating and shopping.

when i come back,

it's goodbye holidays and hello prelims & course work.

i'm such a procrastinator.

but still.

I'LL MISS YOU GUYSSSS.

<3

eh stepsssss.

email me if anything.

.

.

.

we're such stalkers.

shhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Headlines lead out

the first day of the hols, 

and i cleaned my room!

tessaa! you can come over now!

and you won't be complaining.

unless i mess it up again, of course.

i need a plan for the 3 weeks i'll be studying.

right.

these 2 weeks..

finish up all the coursework.

mean MI, TOK, World Lit 2 & econs commentary.

3 weeks is left for studying my ass off for prelims.

god. 

i hate coursework.

omg.

im hungry again.

what's wrong with me.

school tmr..

means handing up cas forms

hmmm.

i spent the whole day doing nothing.

now i feel bad.

god. the holidays do not feel like the holidays.

i neeed a real break.

where u can do nothing,

and feel fine about it.

cos you really have nothing to do.

i really want to practise the violin.

but it's in school

:(

anyways,

i spent the whole day watching south park, on facebook, online, and painting my nails, and cleaning my room.

im bored.

i shall start on work.

but ugh.

i need food. 

i am so bored.

typing here is something.

hmmmmmmmm.

im not watching korean dramas non stop anymore.

i don't feel like it.

this is boring.

i cant be bothered to start.

gahhhhhh.

if you run

This is my plan.

I'll lose tina.

and get a piercing.

and then since i can't exercise or whatever.

i'll just stress myself out until i won't eat.

therefore,

i wont spend money,

and i can get more studs

and clothes.

and still look good.

by stressing myself out,

i'll be studying.

therefore, good ib grades.  

(:

mission accomplished.

how dirty boys get cleaned

today,

i went with steps to town to fix my pod.

this were the following that happened..

1. i was going up the steps with steph and in between us, there was a guy.

i was behind the guy.

and i was like 'eh steps!'

and the guy in front of me was like ' i know right. these steps are so annoying.'

and im like 'mmhmm...'

(bursts out laughing after he walked away)

2. i saw mohawk girl.

heeeeeee x347293842340239840294234

3. we went people watching outside cine.

and was all like 'omg. if my boyf had a tattoo like that, i'd dump him' (on some guy with a girl tattoo on his calf... it's damn ugly)

'hahahha. steph. imagine your boyf dressing like that' ( on some chubby guy wearing a sleeveless hoodie shirt.. fucking disgusting)

'omg. she looks so fat.. eh wait. she's pregnant.' 

i think my korean drama craze is dying down.

i like today.

cos i can do whatever i want,

whenever i want.

not worrying about assignments due tmr,

or ee or tok

or practicals

or whatever there is on a school day.

and i can sleep whenever i want.

list of things to do for the hols.

1. world lit 2

2. MI

3. redo TOK

4. Redo econs commentaries

5. study & revise all 5 subs

6. practise the piano and violin

7. lose weight

i guess that's about it.

4 more days and im outta this country.

(: