Cos we only live to die

I met this person who drives me insane.

But who I am very sane around.

This is fun.

These few days felt like last week.

I am bored to bits,

but I went to the beach today,

even though I wanted to go yesterday.

I love the beach.

I love how I had a cup of coffee today,

alone.

Wrote a bit of my script for my upcoming video.

It's a series actually, called ICSTS (I can't stand that shit)

it'll be up soon. (:

I love being alone, listening to the ocean,

and I love steps because she keeps quiet all the time and we can be together and not talk but it wouldn't be awkward.

And we'll do everything stupid, and talk about nonsense.

<3

Bestest person to hang out with, ever.

First person I ever fought with also, but it's cool. lol.

I love today, the rain, and the sand in between my toes.

And I was free, relaxing and walking into the waters.

Man, I really love the beach, like LOVE that place.

I want to go back everyday if I could,

just taking walks there.

I don't know how I appreciate that so much,

maybe its because everyday I think about leaving this place and I feel so sad,

and I start to appreciate everything in this island and a little beyond even though it's so crappy.

If anything, I would like to take time off from work,

study, go to the beach, get coffee and write, compose my little tunes on the piano, start playing the violin again, learn the guitar, dress up to go out only to walk around aimlessly, hang out with my friends, make loads of videos, draw, learn different languages, paint.. just doing things I feel like doing and having the money to, too. lol. That's the tough part.

I love doing random crap like these, i love exploring art for some reason, but I'm not going to study it.

I was thinking of what I want to do in university, and the thing that appeals most to me is creative writing. God, like my parents would let me take that course. There's so much to learn, I hate it when I say I don't have enough time because I spend most of it here or watching TV. I love television, and I get a lot of inspiration from it, but it's so bad for me. I could just sit there for like a million hours. hah. I have no idea why I'm ranting, maybe it's cos I'm thinking too much nowadays. i like that.

I am so curious about army. i think I'm like satisfying my tomboyish-ness (whatever u call it) because I wanted to join it when I was like 9. I wanted to join NCC in secondary school and I told my parents I would join the malaysian army if they picked me.. which they didn't. hah. I have no idea why I'm so interested in soldiers and shit like that. But I met chiang yesterday and he told me so much about it. Even though it's all propaganda and shit, which I don't think I can ever survive and stuff, I would like join it because I'm so very fascinated about how they run the damn thing. I would never take the physical training though, even though that is for the most part. I will never run. I would march under the sun for hours though, but no running. Somehow, I miss my uniform group shit from secondary school, although I hate it too much, I love the marching part and the camping part. ah well.

Man, I can't wait till I know my schedule for the week. Gotta start studying, and practicing. Exams are up next. Piano in a month, and math in 3. gahhhh.

Placebo or no?

I think you're the sweetest thing.

Rachael, you're a freaking loser.

BUT.

I win this round.

LOLOLOLOL.

:)

Rachael, you're such an idiot.