watch me go
Because my friend left.
This is the first time I watched my friend go.
I won't see her for 2 years.
Next, another goes.
Then I will be next.
You know how you have so many emotions at the same time.
I just want to burst out crying for that second, and then I want to laugh because I see something really funny.
I didn't cry today.
But my 1 hour train ride home was an emotional rollercoaster because I thought of so many things, like what would it be like when I leave.
I realised that when I was younger, every time my parents tell me that we're moving to canada, I'd be so freaking upset because I know I had a life here. My friends were all here.
But since a year ago, I feel that there is nothing left in this country for me, and I should move to some place where no one knows me, and start over.
But then, that was one year ago.
This time, it is different yet the same.
I want to leave so bad as much as I want to go.
But I realised that I just made friends, and I just realised how my old friends are the most awesomest people on earth, and how they're all going to stay here and I'm going away. I mean, they are people who give me all the advice I need, talk to me when I'm down, hang out with me when I'm lonely and we have awesome conversations together.
I know there's always the thing about making new friends and that shit, but hey, nothing beats people that you've known for almost 4 years, or almost your entire life.
I was wondering about how bad I'll cry when I leave, who would be there at the airport sending me off, how the whole situation would be like.
I know I'd hug all my friends and say goodbye,
and then my family which although can be so annoying, the best family I could ever ask for. I have the most awesome siblings ever.
The person I would miss the most is my sister though I'm like wayyyy older than her, but still. She knows almost everything about me, and she makes me laugh till I cry.
I really hope I get accepted to canada though.
I always wanted to go overseas for university cos my dad did that and that's why I want to too.
When I grow up a bit more, I might stay there, who knows right, but I'd definitely miss this place so much. I'm still thinking really hard about permanently moving and stuff.
Man, the whole train ride had a whole load more thoughts than this.
There's so much to think about because everyone around me is leaving, going some place, and I don't want to be stuck here either.
Freaking life changing shit.
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