I suffocate myself to sleep

Ice Nine Kills is the bomb.

their lyrics are awesome.

I'm bored as hell but I'm not going to do anything about it but watch videos all day, and prolly make one myself too.

I've been doing a lot of thinking recently and I've been thinking of like how I survived a whole year without a guy and stuff like that.

Yes, it's been a year and it felt like fucking 3 centuries.

I feel so freaking cynical about love cos of past relationships, cosbeingcheatedonlikebyeveryguyI'vedatedislikethemostloserthingeverandIdon't evenknowwhyI'mwritingithere,butwhatthehellright,

soIdon'tthinkIwouldlikeeverfallinlovetilllikeI'm25orsomething.

I've been like stalking d on youtube and myspace and all that websites and stuff right, and I was thinking about how lucky he was and stuff. I mean, that girl is so cool. She's like 15 and she knows what the hell she wants. I think that is the perfect role model for people, like liking yourself the way you are is the most impossible thing for most people, but I'm getting there. And he's like the most awesome kinda person he is. I like the way he rolls with his principals and stuff that he talks about.

I watch too much youtube, really.

But I think it's still not enough. :)

so, I need to make awesome videos.

like, better than my first one which i think was total crap.

please don't try to find it,

you'd prolly watch it and laugh at me.

Now I've just gotta go practice talking and clean up and start shooting.

and then family reunion.

If the video is good, I'd put it here.

Next video's about valentine's day! :)