fuck you very much

i have no fucking clue how i've gotten to such an idiot in my life. but I woke up this morning feeling so fucked up it's unbelievable. First of all, let me tell you about my night. getting fucking high, to feeling so fucking sad, to being bailed on twice by the same person, to cutting my hand with my bracelet my accident, of course, to like bleeding like crazy and my hand hurting like fuck the whole damn night, to getting msges, to throwing my phone cos I was so pissed off at it. I still feel like throwing that piece of shit around cos I fucking hate technology and shit like that. So I slept with my hand hurting like fuck cos my bracelet was fucking made of glass and I am still wondering if any pieces of that shit is stuck in my hand. Now it's like fucking swollen. i'm so freaking pissed at it.

Then my morning. Right. I saw something I didn't want to see and think about for a long fucking time and I saw it and I was like wtf. Rachael, I told you to keep off that shit. Like I want to slap myself so hard. I'm so pissed off at myself and everyone around me right now. it's retardedly i dont know how to describe it anymore. I better clean my act up cos my relatives are coming over and stuff like that but I'm so freaking ass pissed off right now. I want to shoot someone over and over again.

I fucking want to get a piercing so bad also. An eyebrow piercing. Like nevermind. I'm going to be impulsive and get one. I'm still so fucking pissed off right now, it's not funny at all. I want to kill a bunny, and cut up a snail and dissect a freaking deer and like thrash some shit up.

I haven't felt so fucked up in such a long time, I think I should make a video of myself being all fucked up and shit. When I watch it again, it'll be so fucking funny, but for now. I have no mood to do anything but like freaking clean up my freaking room.

omfg. I am soooooooooooo pissed right now.

rachaellllllll. wtf.