Slob

I am currently freezing my ass off, blogging.

Cos even though you had the hottest shower in the world,

airconditioning + fan blowing + water that evaporates from your skin at the same time

just means you're gonna freezeeeee.

But i like it.

I like to know how it feels to pretend you're in a different climate and like experience the same feeling.

But like you can control your current climate.

Anyways,

I just want to say,

VERTIGO IS BACK.

so is migraine.

which mean, I HAVE TO START TAKING MEDS AGAIN.

this is horrible.

I SHOULD STOP SITTING ON SWIVEL CHAIRS.

like.

I do such random shit that makes my fishbowl of a head, or so steph calls it, spin.

I don't think I should like do anything crazy for a while.

Cant go clubbing, drinking and all that nonsense.

I shall stay at home, rethink what I'm going to do,

and like chris says, be an angel.

lawl.

right.

I'm just going to start all my artsy nonsense again.

I need to work on my drawing.

Cos it sucks so bad,

ok, not really. My painting sucks more.

You can see that in my previous posts.

So if you ask how my week is,

I'm just going to say, it was tiring,

not enjoyable and very mundane.

but of course monday started out interesting when I met the rest of the cast.

then tuesday and wednesday was work,

where the only interesting and fun part was me standing behind the counter, scooping up leftover milkshakes from the blender, and make drinks.

That's the only thing I miss from work.

Oh yes, and sanitising the tables and wiping the doors.

I love wiping the glass doors.

I like it when things are clean and orderly.

I really dont understand why I can do that in the restaurant and not my room.

Next week is so exciting.

First, piano life comes to an end on Monday.

That is tmr.

Wish me luck.

I suck,

but then again, I'M ALMOST DONE.

You know the weirdest thing about my parent's like they only care if I do well for my music, other than that its like, whatever dude, whatever u feel like.

I know they're like omfg, why are your results so bad,

and really, after that, they dont really care.

It's like so weird.

Like Music is more important than like school work in this place.

It's quite awesome.

I hate working for things anyways.

I prefer doing things that interest me.

And no one forces me to do.

Like playing nonsense on the piano,

like composing my own little tune, and there's no one to disturb me.

Or like creative writing assignments.

I love creative writing so much.

I don't think I'm that good at it,

But used to having your compositions read out in class meant something.

I like it when people read what I have to say,

like stuff that actually means something.

If there was a cause I stand for,

it'll be for girls to have a higher self esteem,

like stop obsessing over weight and shit like that, and like boys and all that nonsense.

like you're good the way you are.

unless you're a slut.

then it's not cool.

you know for some reason,

people i meet/find/stalk in my life like changes me for some reason.

I kinda like that.

I'm at this phase now,

where I want to be a better person,

like do the right thing, and like don't be so crazy and shit like that.

Cos being all like slutty and shit is not cool, and like I watched these girls on the maury show,

and they're like so screwed up.

although the irony is that im playing a slut but whatever man,

it's just acting.

I really dont want to be like that.

I'll still be cool, by not being such a bitch.

Speaking of acting,

I'm filming my first major role next week

for like 4 days straight.

I bet it's going to be tiring

but it'll be awesome.

Something I love to do since I was 4.

I watch too much tv.

I know I wanted to be on Barney when I was a kid.

I thought it was such a great show.

then after that, when I was like 18,

fucking barney girl spoilt my childhood dream by like carrying a whip and singing in american idol

like wtfffffffff.

But I think the best part about shows is the script.

The story has to be good,

and not gay at all, or cliche.

That is why I want to be a script writer.

I would like to be a comedy show writer.

I thought friends was mega amazing.

the jokes were too awesome.

Man,

I could kill to be anything close to those writers.

I've been playing the piano constantly the whole day,

and watching law and order: svu and CSI NY in between,

but what the hell

I hate it so much.

I hate the aural thing too much.

it's the worst.

I can't sing,

or like tell the cadences

OMFG. I WANT TO SHOOT THE PERSON WHO INVENTED CADENCES.

wtf is your problem?

trying to make someone's life so difficult.

freaking hell.

I hate it so much.

I shall wait for my hair to dry,

while watching greek.

I BET IT'LL BE AWESOME.

Cos it's sororities and shit like that.

man,

I would want to live in america after watching that.

that would not be good.

meh.