i'm lonely, i'm scared

i swear, in the 17 years of my life.

i never celebrated valentine's with the special boy crap.

but well.

my life isnt that sad.

hahaha.

i got flowers today. :D

lol.

i hate this kinda days.

cos its really stupid.

makes you feel so lonely.

and then the ib comes along and tells you you're not alone.

technically,

i still am.

stupid day.

i swear.

at this moment,

i dont want to ever give my heart to anyone ever again.

cos you know what happens.

nothing lasts forever.

today,

i watched the curious case of benjamin button.

its so sad and i really wana watch it again.

cos its good.

you learn stuff from the movie.

like how letting go is so important.

and how nothing lasts forever.

how we have to lose to know how important that thing is.

and how to have the courage to live all over again.

like what i need to do now.

start over.

i guess when you look over at other people's life.

you wished at some point,

you could be like that.

only to realise that you already had a moment like that.

but it's over.

you're never gonna get it back.

or,

find out things you never knew.

honestly,

i think i should hang out with old people.

cos they're the wisest and that's the only way you're gonna learn anything.

learning things from friends dont really get you anywhere,

unless they're well-read,

cos the only way people learn something useful.

cos in school, we learn nothing.

with that to be said,

im still stupidly bored now.

i prefer being out laughing at boys carrying flowers.

cos i think it's damn funny.

sweet but funny.

the funny part still stands out.