just roll over and die

i wish i could roll over and die,

for starters, sock msged me today.

its the msg that i never ever wanted to see.

i know i'd see it, but i didnt want to.

ah, you know what i mean.

fine. i'll just tell you anyway.

its the results on thursday.

the picture's like my reaction or something.

then she ruined my day for awhile.

so i told geogina and everyone else the results was on thursday.

i love their reactions.

esther's especially.

thank god for sarah.

and ice cream.

im alright now i think.

all i know is i went for icecream to feel better and indeed i did.

then we went to hang and green tea and talk.

and then we went home,

and then homework till now.

gees. but its better than thinking abt the results.

please dream of 10 points tonight rachael!

oh, one really wierd fact abt me is that some of my dreams are like premenition or something.

they really come through.

its scary.

i need to start praying.

seriously start.

i cant screw up.

!!!